My Difficult Family Situation

I've been through hell trying to deal with my family situation in the past twenty years, especially around 2003 and through the past three years. I have recently been more fully facing and standing up against the most severe abuses in my family, for the first time in my life. Its been a VERY painful situation for me, which includes severe levels of mental and emotional abuse.

   
I feel that what happened to me, in my family, is a story that must be shared, for the sake of the safety and well being of all victims of this sort of thing, including myself. There is more about it on this link...

A Case of Severe Mental and Emotional Abuse

https://exposingemotionalabuse.blogspot.com/p/a-case-of-severe-mental-abuse.html

My New Song - Does It Even Matter to Ya?

Does it Even Matter to Ya?

copyright Sharon Rose Poet 7-27-2024 

I am now almost old and grey.

My steps sometimes begin to sway.

My skin looks like a crumpled bag,

And some see me as a worthless hag.

But I have a heart and a sound mind.

And I need you all to be more kind.

My heart sometimes, begins to break

And writhe beneath each cruel mistake.

But does it... does it even matter to ya?

Does it, does it, does it even matter to ya?

Some would say its just "tough luck.

Fight back or swim hard, like a duck."

Or "you just have to toughen up."

But I never fell and never swam,

And I don't even think I can -

I want to stay the way I am!

My heart is something I must guard.

Although this world can make it hard.

But does it... does it even matter to ya?

Does it, does it, does it even matter to ya?

I was sensitive and this is good,

But for myself I never stood

Until I wrote the songs for you.

I wish you all could know it too;

The heart in me I had to save

Inside that misperceived cave.

My heart was deepening its Love.

When I turned from that first big shove.

But does it... does it even matter to ya?

Does it, does it, does it even matter to ya?

I loved you deep right from the start.

And longed to share with you my heart,

I wanted to wash away all your pain

And bring about the needed change.

But you chose to do it by yourself

And got stuck on an angry shelf!

So, I cried alone in an empty place,

Unable to reach beyond the mistakes.

But does it... does it even matter to ya?

Does it, does it, does it even matter to ya?

As I look back at our misplaced steps

That most have not even faced yet.

It hurts so much its hard to bear.

Sometimes I just numbly stare.

If only we'd all been free to care

. If only truth had stayed back there.

Although the past can't be undone,

We can choose to learn from it or run.

But does it... does it even matter to ya?

Does it, does it, does it even matter to ya?

Did I ever even matter to ya?

This song almost fits Leonard Cohen's "Hallelujah" cello melody, but it needs one of its own. 

Standing for What is Right

We can still stand up for what is right

Without joining the negative fight.

An Epiphany on the Water Contamination Problem

I had wondered how the pharmaceuticals were getting into our wilderness rivers and streams, since the EPA said they were being found there as well as in our city water supplies. This has been thought to be primarily from run off of unused pharmaceuticals that has not been properly disposed of. But I just realized that, because most people consume various types of pharmaceuticals, which contaminate our human waste, almost every country septic system is contaminating the Earth, especially those that sit near the pathways of under ground streams...

THE BODIES, OF EVERY HUMAN BEING, WHO CONSUMES PHARMACEUTICALS, ARE CONTAMINATING THE EARTH AND/OR OUR WATER SUPPLIES, LITERALLY EVERY TIME THEY GO TO THE BATHROOM.

So, what is the obvious solution? Return to using at least mostly only safe and healthy raw plants and healthy diets for medicine. We may also be able to filter the waste, of pharmaceutical takers, through something like charcoal, in order to remove the chemicals, but would the loaded charcoal waste contaminate the Earth too? There are probably other things we can also do, but lets finally face the TRUTH...

THE SAFE MEDICINE, FOR US AND OUR ENVIRONMENT, IS NATURAL PLANT MEDICINE. THE HEALTH AND SAFETY OF BOTH DEPEND ON US RETURNING TO IT. AND A LOT MORE CAN AND SHOULD BE DONE, IN ORDER TO PREVENT ILLNESSES, TO SAY THE LEAST.

I Grieve

I cry - I grieve, for my heart to be set free.

Ode to Care for me

I wrote this poem last month, after deciding that I must keep a door closed, on my family, in order to protect myself and recover from what they had done to me and our father...etc.

Ode to Care for me

copyright Sharon Rose Poet 6-20-2024

I am facing the reality
 Deeper than ever before.

On their hate and cruelty

I must glue the door.

I still love them all

As much as before.

But my aching heart

Can't take anymore.

I need peace and kindness

For my health to restore.

PLEASE STOP THE POLITICAL FIGHTING!

I am praying for peace between our political candidates and political parties. We, the people, should not be subjected to the hateful fighting anymore. It's just not good for any of us.