Monday, August 1, 2022

Plea for Our Future

   Last week I had several dreams of fire and flood disasters. I feel that at least some were symbolic of what has been happening in my life. But it appears that some were prophetic and that those who target humanity plan to vamp up the "natural" disasters...etc. In one dream there is pressurized water pushing its way to the surface of the Earth, in different places that are all connected, which causes the surface if the Earth to sink/flood. In another one there is a fire in the middle of the USA which comes down from Canadian...etc. 

I beg officials to stand up for humanity and call for an end to criminal use of all sorts of laser and microwave weapons, including those that have been being used to torture victims like myself and those that have been used for mind control...as well as all other parts of the horrid evil targeting of humanity.

Thursday, July 28, 2022

No More!

No More!
copyright 7-28-2022 Sharon Rose Poet

I've been through it all before;
Round after round of torturous hell
And the unreachable locked door.
I can not go through it again and
I should not be put through more.

I beg those who do the targeting to stop - stop hurting me and stop hurting humanity. I beg officials who are aware to stand up and be here for us; please stand up to expose and stop all levels of the covert targeting, including the tortures and the mind control. We need you to be here for us, especially for victims who are not aware and never even try to seek or get any sort of help.

Flood of Emotions

    I recently had a dream about a flood in my family of origin; in the dream I am caught up in a flood, that rages through it, and I am desperately groping for something solid to hold onto as the waters sweep me away, but the structure keeps breaking apart - there is nothing solid for me to hold onto there.
    I had thought that this part of my dream was prophetic, but it appears to be about what has already happened...
    In the past year I had stood up (from a distance) for the first time in my family of origin. And I did not handle it well due to my overwhelming pain and concern for my father, and due to the other types of emotional turmoil that the rest of my family was already in. It really was a hopeless situation, especially with the covert targeting freely continuing. I'm sorry I tried and I am sorry that it was such a hopeless situation. I feel sad for all of us.

Monday, July 25, 2022

Trauma Induced Control

People who are in a state of emotional trauma are more impressionable - more controllable. And this is why those who do the covert targeting have used the tactic of inflicting emotional trauma upon the victims whom they have not been able to control in other ways, like with the pharmaceuticals.

Prophetic Dreams of Flood Disasters

I recently had two flood dreams. One showed floods happening due to pressurized water pushing its way to the surface of the earth, making parts of it sink under the water. In the dream this same thing is happening in many different places and that it is all connected. I am not sure if this was a prophetic dream or if it is symbolic of things that already have been happening. But I have had prophetic dream of floods...etc., before...

Those who inconspicuously target humanity with, things that appear to be "natural", want me and others to believe that the horrid fire and flood and illness disasters are being done by "God," but this is NOT true. They have been being planned and done by human beings. I saw this in the first forewarning dreams I had around the year 2005. (Those dreams showed human beings with maps of their plans to create floods. They also showed that the floods they create in New Hampshire are so severe that New London becomes an island that is surrounded by water...etc.) I feel that it is evil human forces that do this. They are not "God" and have no connection to the real God. GOD IS LOVE AND GOD WOULD NEVER DO ANYTHING THAT WOULD HURT HARMLESS PEOPLE, ESPECIALLY NOT MASSES OF GOOD AND HARMLESS PEOPLE.

Wednesday, July 6, 2022

Lasering of My Foot?

   It appears that my foot was being damaged with a laser weapon starting on June 25th. It caused severe pain where the achilles tendon attaches to my heel, especially when I walked.  I had done absolutely nothing to injure myself - I had not fallen or twisted my foot and I had not been exercising or doing excessive walking or anything unusual. The pain just suddenly started happening although there was no injury, which is why I feel it was another laser weapon attack.  I have experienced many of these sorts of attacks and they are usually to sabotage a job or to punish me through making me suffer. 
   My foot is a lot better now - only mild pain and tightness when I walk. And I hope it is allowed to return to normal.
  

Friday, June 24, 2022

I Tried Calling my Father Today and My Sister Ran Interference with HIS phone

    Tomorrow is my Father's birthday. So I tried calling him again, but ended up experiencing the discomfort of my sister intrusively answering his phone and then a verbal attack from her when I told her that she should not be answering his phone when I call him...

    The first time I called; my sister answered my father's phone and just rudely said, "He's not here," when I asked for him. Then she called me right back on his phone and either there was a bad connection or she said nothing when I repeatedly said "hello". (This reminded me of the prank calls that her and her children often did in the early 1990s.) But I called right back, in case it was my father trying to call me back. But she answered his phone again and this time said that he was outside, doing something with his tractor and in the family grave yard, and said that he would be back in the house in about a half hour. It was odd that she was even answering his phone when I called and odder that she was not being more rude to me. But I did not give her a chance to be mean - I had quickly ended the phone calls so that she would not have the chance to say more.    
   I called back in a little over a "half hour” later and she AGAIN answered his phone even though she KNOWS that I do not want to talk to her! So I said, "You know that I am calling Dad's phone to talk to Dad and not to talk to you so you should not even be answering his phone when I call, especially not to play your games." And then she quickly launched into one of her viper attacks and yelled, "Listen bitch, you shut your f....ing mouth..." and I hung up on her before it could get worse, because I know it surely would have. About a half hour later I got another call from my father's phone number. I did not answer. Then yet another call shortly after that, which I also did not answer. I doubt the last two calls were my father trying to call me back, because no message was left for me. It was most likely her wanting to verbally abuse me. I was tempted to report her for harassment, but it is possible that she aimed to cover up her behaviors by telling my father that I called, in her pretense that everything is fine and that she is being nice to me. It would actually be just like her to do this or to even twist things around and tell my father that I am the one who called her a "bitch"...etc. If she did this the last two calls could have been my father and possibly even him aiming to unfairly blast me, like has been done in the past after he'd been manipulated by her.    
   But either way, I do not want to fight with my sister or be subjected to her verbal abuse or suffer the results of her manipulating my father against me again. (Her verbal attacks, can get VERY threatening; I remember her viscously saying to me, "I am going to see to it that your children hate you" and her vindictively saying things like, "You are going to wish you were dead when I get through with you" and after I started standing up for myself she said things like, "I am going to tell the world that you are a paranoid schizophrenic if you do not shut up...") Some of her behaviors have been so bad that I have caught myself blocking the memories of them. I have no doubt that more will surface when I am better able to handle it. Her threats are not idle ones and they tend to leave me worried about what she is going to do next.    
   In the first three decades of my life, I used to always (literally) tiptoe on egg shells around her, in order to avoid her hate and vengeances. But, even though I have mostly not even been connected to her since then, I am as sick of doing that as I am of her evil behaviors, so I am now just being VERY direct and honest, which is my nature anyway. (I am a double Aquarian.) I actually do not want to talk to her at all and she knows this, which I'm sure is partly why she is now answering my father's phone when I call him.    
   Just her answering his phone is her usual disrespect of my wishes, because I had recently set firm boundaries with her. Her answering our father's phone is also disrespectful of him, because its HIS phone and HIS personal calls that she is intruding upon. He has an answering machine for when he is not able to pick up his own phone.

Today I wanted to call my father and say, "I love you, Dad. I hope you have a nice birthday," but I was not able to reach him and I got subjected to more of my sister's crap instead, which triggers bad memories for me, and I am too overwhelmed with other things to be subjected to more of it right now! Even if I were not going through tough times I'd still not want to be subjected to anymore of it. I have had WAY TOO MUCH of it in my life already and I want it out of my life.    
   I now feel like I can not even call my father without risking being subjected to my sister's cruel games or the viscous attacks she launches against those who do not agree with her or those whom she is jealous of or those who dare say anything about the wrongs she has done...etc. (This is what triggered her today - my telling her that she should not be answering Dad's phone. She knew she was doing wrong and she wanted to attack me for saying something about it - the usual.) No doubt that she does want me to shut up about a lot of things that I have put into my writings in the past couple decades, but I won't because I was far too silent for too long and my silence around her problems and her hate and her jealousy and her abuse and her threats and her projections and her fabrications was not good for anyone in the family and especially not good for me or her.    
   It has recently seemed like the only way to stop her from freely and obviously hurting people even more is to stand up with the truths so that she launches into her 'miss nice' act just to try to prove me wrong and make me look like I am the bad one. It has not been very effective, but I think that my openly standing up has helped my father in the past couple years. It is sad that it has to be publicly done this way - that the problem could not be functionally dealt with inside the family and in private, but this has been impossible due to the degree of control that BOTH of my sisters have in the family.

The bottom line today is that my sister is now even more directly standing between my father and I through interfering with what little is left of the relationship that she had already cruelly and INTENTIONALLY destroyed long ago. After the worse rounds of her hell, all that was left of my relationship with my father was my periodic, "I love you, Dad" phone calls to him. And I should be able to continue doing this, without any risk of being subjected to more hell. It is so sad that I can't.    
   I actually fear for my fathers safety and wellbeing, because my sisters are in complete control of him and his life and they have proven to me that they are not even close to being capable of caring for him enough to properly fill his needs and honor his wishes or even to let him freely make his own decisions without them manipulating him into doing what THEY want, in his vulnerable old age. I do not think they would physically harm him, but I think they are VERY capable of inconspicuous things like drugging him and brainwashing him and/or using inflicted or natural medical conditions as an excuse to go against his wishes and have him removed from his home so they can finish taking over his estate. Needless to say, I do not trust them at all, because one has always been extremely greedy and the other has been extremely cruel and vindictive and heartless.    
   I have also been trying to reach my father just to be assured that he is OK. But, like I said in the last post; I have not been able to reach him due to him not answering his phone. Today, due to my sister's contradictions I do not know if my father was really not there at all or if he was just outside doing things. She said both things within minutes of each other and I do not know which one was the truth. I do not know if he is OK or if they have forced him out of his home, since they got rid of my older brother. I do not know if he is sick or well or even if he is alive or dead. And I do not know if he even wants to hear from me at all, although I think that if she manipulated him that far against me she would have launched at the opportunity to tell me so in today's phone calls, just to hurt me like has been repeatedly done in the past even when it was not true.    
   My sister and her son recently destroying my older brother's relationship with my father has left me with nobody to let me know how my father is doing when I can not reach him. And this is really difficult for me, even though there is nothing I can physically do to help him, except for these public writings. I am praying for him.... and for me too.

Wednesday, June 22, 2022

Another Dark Success

   It looks like the evil targeting had great success in this last round of hell, that was raised in my family. It appears that both my oldest brother and I have again been manipulated out of my father's life, due to the cruel and greedy manipulations of other family members and those who support it.
 
   The mean email, that was sent through my second oldest sister's son's email account, and clearly aimed to destroy my older brother's relationship with my father succeeded; my brother blamed my father and closed his door on the whole family. Then he had heart attack symptoms and ended up in the hospital undergoing surgery. He is now recovering and trying to remain stress free. I do not agree with his decision to abandon our father, in his vulnerable old age, but I can not blame him for not wanting to continue being blindsided by cruel manipulations that freely continue and are even supported by our father. And I understand him making that decision under the current conditions. My brother is not aware of our father being a mind control victim (even though I have told him) and that this is why our father is so easily manipulated and why he blindly believes the fabrications, and even covers for and defends the obvious abuses. I know that, if my brother were aware of the mind control, and if he had not also been effected by it himself, he would not have let the manipulations succeed with destroying what was left of his relationship with his father. Like I said, I can not blame him. Those whom I do blame are the ones who are fully responsible and its not my father or my older brother or me, although it appears that the three of us are the ones who are being blamed for what my sister (and her son) instigated. Such is the usual way in the evil manipulative targeting process.
   My father has now lost his oldest son and its probably forever this time, because neither one of them had fully recovered from the last time my sister's manipulations tore them apart a couple years ago. This is really sad, because my father needed him in his life, now more than ever. This situation is really sad for BOTH my father and my older brother. BOTH were severely hurt by it. But my father is the primary victim in this scenario; he's an old man who has been isolated from two of his own children - the only two who would have made sure his wishes for himself were respected and that he was not stolen from or taken advantage of in his vulnerable old age.
   Its sad for me too though, because I DEEPLY care about my father and my older brother was my only consolation that my father would have someone there for him who was not too greedy or heartless to do right by my him in his old age, since my sister's and the other parts of the targeting already had put a wall between my father and I.
   I had already been mostly cut out of my father's life since the 2002/2003 fabricated emails, (which appeared to be performed by my second oldest sister and BOTH of her children as well as my oldest sister), and the ongoing targeting of me, except for the periodic phone calls I have been secretly making to tell my father that I love him...etc. But since my sisters found out about me connecting with my father and older brother... and since my older brother and father had a dispute over my sister's mean behaviors in the last round of hell they raised, my father does not answer his phone when I call, not even on this past father's day. (I have only talked to him once since last December.) I do not know if my sisters now have him blaming and avoiding me or if they just have control of his phone since they forced a new phone upon him. But I have almost no doubt that they have him blaming me for what they have done, because this is the usual way that they operate. Since my new email account was hacked into, during this last round of hell and possibly long before it as well, I do not know if my sister again fabricated emails from my account, in order to turn my father against me. But there seems to be no way that I can find out, and nothing I can do about it this time either.
   In the last email sent to me, through my sister's son's email account, it was implied that my father did not want me in his life anymore. I wrote to him and ask if this was true, but he has not answered and its been about a month since I sent that letter. It looks like they succeeded with manipulating me the rest of the way out of my father's life as well.
   The confusion and pain that my sisters have inflicted upon my father, in their greedy aims to destroy his relationships with his most caring siblings, is heart wrenching. It is scary that anyone can be so cruel to a vulnerable old man. My heart has been aching for my father, literally.

P.S. I still think that my oldest sister is also involved in the current round of manipulations, because she always had been in the past, but just not as obviously as my other sister or her children. Even though my second oldest sister's son's email address was the one used to degrade and hurt and trigger my oldest brother and I in this last round of hell, the style of the messaging had BOTH of my sister's styles in them.
   I fully believe that BOTH of my brothers, as well as my father, were effected by the mind control part of the targeting, through this and all previous rounds of my sister's cruel and greedily manipulations. Like I have said before, my youngest brother appears to be a SEVERE mind control victim. And he was used in the recent manipulations as well.
   It is shocking how much the technological mind control part of the targeting supports my sister's greed, vengeance and jealous hate. But the fact that it repeatedly does says a lot.

Monday, May 16, 2022

Computer Infiltration

Whomever has my computer infiltrated changed my IP address last night. Also my second oldest sister and her son have been sending me nasty emails even after I asked them not to contact me. The projections and mean digs do not effect me much, though. I do not think they can hurt me more than they alrdy have. Its so sad that they are in such a dark place and project it onto me instead of looking at their own behaviors and stopping.

Sunday, May 15, 2022

A Cruel Chain of Manipulations to Deprive an Old Man

Hell broke loose in my family this past week. Stepping back and looking at the chain of events makes it VERY clear what it is all about. There is a LOT more to it than this. But this is brief overview of it.

FYI;  My youngest brother and two older sisters have complete control of my father's estate and what happens to him in his old age. One of them has gained so much control that they have even had my father sign a power of attorney over to her, leaving the rest of his children powerless. The one who has done this is well known for being EXTREMELY greedy. All have problems with being greedy. And at least one of them has been trying to destroy my father's relationships between my older brother and I, even trying to keep us out of my father's  life as he reaches old age. This has been successful with me, but my older brother recently crashed through the wall and reentered my father's life. Recently, one of the three may have found that I may still be in my father's will, even though I had asked to be taken out of it. And they have reason to believe that I MAY  be deciding to not be apposed to being in it.

1. My older brother talks to my father about feeling powerless to do anything to make sure he stays in his home for the rest of his life, like he wants to...etc. He starts setting up a meeting with my father and other siblings, in order to talk about the current set up and what would be best for EVERYBODY. (This is to prevent our other siblings from removing my father from his home, steeling his money and then shoving him into a nursing home... A scenario that STRONGLY appears to have been being aimed for.)

2. As the meeting is being set up; my youngest brother suddenly contacts me and proceeds to verbally stab knives into my preexisting wounds and is even trying to turn me against my father and also saying things that he'd KNOW would make me VERY concerned about my father...etc. Then my second oldest sister (and/or her son) does the same sort of stabbing with my brother, but in a way that would make him extremely angry with my father and would deeply insult and hurt his wife. My father, older brother and I are in a state of pain and turmoil and confusion.
    Then efforts are made to cover up the cruel emails, which are more than just the one - FOUR were sent to me a few months ago as well. My email account is hacked and things they sent me are erased...etc. The hackers IP address is a company that my second oldest sister's husband used to work for.

3. The meeting will probably not take place; the three who are in control will probably stay in complete control, and my father may again have nobody in his life who is capable of caring about him enough to not be destroying his relationships with his other children or be lusting after HIS money...etc. 

4. I pray for a Light to shine strong for all of us, so that this last chain of manipulations do not succeed and the TRUTHS, about the dark manipulations, are realized by everyone who needs to know.

I am worried about my older brother and father, but do not know how they are doing, because there has been a pain filled silence since the initial blowup. Perhaps more time is needed to calm the anger and sooth the pain. Perhaps it will all get twisted around to blame me, like my sister's manipulations have done so many times in the past? Or will it go in the opposite direction?
I literally feel pain in my chest when I think of my father continuing to be deprived of the help and compassion he deeply needs from his other two children in his old age - the two who have been being manipulated out of his life.
   I am now also worried about my email account; I am convince that it is my second oldest sister who has hacked into it and I wonder... how long has she had access to it? What else has she done, if anything? How did she access it without having my phone for the security codes? I changed my passwords, but this would only stop her if she does not still have my email open in her computer. Does she still have access to it? What might she do in the future?
   The last time she violated one of my email accounts, and fabricated emails to hurt my father and I and destroy our relationship, she'd had her son slither into my life to get me to say my password. But I have not even seen or talked to them in many YEARS and they supposedly do not even know where I am! How did she get my password and a security code that is supposed to only be able to be obtained through my phone? What else has she done in the past and how do I protect myself in the future? I am in overload and VERY overwhelmed. This past week's chain of events have been EXTREMELY painful and difficult for me. I feel for my older brother and I, and my heart aches for my father so much that its hard to bear. How can ANYONE be so cruel to a vulnerable old man? Will my father ever realize what some of his trusted children have been doing to him and me and his eldest son?

P.S. I believe that the radio wave mind control played roles in this process, to fuel my older brother's anger and to keep me in a stated of turmoil for longer than the norm. And I feel that my youngest brother is a severe mind control victim who is not completely acting of his own free will. He appears to be stepping into my sisters roles against me in the family, since he looked at my father's will. My guess is that he saw me in it and had previously thought I was not in it...and he appears to be trying to trigger me into walking away from the family again...etc.

Saturday, May 14, 2022

Hacked Email

   I recently sent a few emails to family members. In them I was standing up for the first time with my siblings. After I did this I got two mean emails back through my sister's son's email address. And two emails from my sister, which I did not read, because she can get so vicious, with projections of her own abusive hehaviors, that I did not want to be subjected to it.  They must have been really bad though, because... last night the email I sent to the family in December, and the ones my sister and her son sent, were all erased from my email account! Whoever did this was able to do it without getting the code from my phone for logging in.  According to Google this was done last evening. And the IP address of the hacker was Comcast - the same company that this sister's husband worked for.  There is nothing I can do about it, because there are no NH laws against email hacking. 


Wednesday, May 11, 2022

A VERY Sad Scenario

  When there is no acknowledgement of an abuse, and there is no validation, no understanding and no compassion for those who got hurt by it; it remains unsolvable, especially when the abuse continues. And its even more unsolveable when the victims of abuses or crimes get blamed for it or are made out to the bad one, because this is just more abuse. Unfortunately this is the way of the evil targeting, both inside and outside heavily targeted families. Its so sad!

Monday, May 9, 2022

Good is Good and Bad is Bad

In that dark "good is bad and bad is good,"
But in the Light Good is Good and bad is bad.

Thursday, May 5, 2022

The "Mental Health" Problem

I just got a visit from two guys who were from a mental health facility that is operating under the name of a "Public Health" Service." It was probably an attempt to (or a covert threat to) have me labeled and drugged and possibly even institutionalized. But I swung the table on them; I told them about how corrupt the "mental health" field is; I told them about things I witnessed in the "mental Health" facility I worked in and about the New Hampshire Parenting Magazine's article that strongly implied that a child feeling sadness is a sign of "mental Illness"...etc.  I talked to them about genuine healing instead of labeling/stigmatizing and drugging people who just need love and kindness and healing. And I asked them to think about what they are a part of and if they want to be used to hurt people instead of GENUINELY helping people. I don't know if I really reached them, because they were probably puppets for those who target me, but if they have any heart left they will think about what I said and do some research.
   Hopefully they will not try to do anything against me just because I am obviously going through tough times and am living in my car. Is living in a car or going through tough times now listed as a "mental illness"? Since normal, natural sadness has been listed in the DSM as a "mental illness", it wouldn't surprise me if poverty is too. Is knowing about how corrupt the field of psychiatry is now a "mental illness"? I'm sure some could twist it into that, in order to prevent awareness. But I must stand strong anyway.
   I'm glad that those who target me did not do the trick of vamping up the microwave targeting, while I talked to those guys, just to make me look mentally ill. They really have nothing to go on - they'd have to lie in order to have me picked up and put away, which I guess is possible, but it hopefully will not happen. 

   I know that vicitms like myself even just writing about our experiences with the covert targeting, makes us look "mentally ill" in a world that is not aware of the targeting and has been brainwashed into thinking that way. But I am standing up anyway, because the truths about the targeting should become known by everyone so that understanding and validation and the PROPER KINDS OF HELP can reach victims of covert targeting.

   I feel that the "mental health" field is not only extremely corrupt, but that a lot of it is literally criminal and should be shut down and replaced with good healthy people who are into GENUINELY helping people to heal, instead of preventing healing with false "mental illness" lables and the suppressing pharmaceuticals, which they enable the distribution of.
   I feel that the field of psychiatry, and the rest of the medical field, has been used in the evil targeting of humanity far more than any other organizations have. Like I have said in my past writings; it is not a coincidence that the brain and feeling numbing pharmaceuticals, which both the "mental health" and medical field heavily pushes upon masses of unaware people, also aids all aspects of the mind control part of the evil targeting of humanity, because it blocks peoples instincts and intuition and leaves them more susceptible to all types of brainwashings...etc. These pharmaceuticals also block people's Hearts and makes them more apt to seek vengeance instead of choosing healthy resolutions to problems. The negative effects of the mass distribution of the brain and feeling numbing pharmaceuticals (which have also been found in public drinking water) are VERY evident in our troubled world. What they have been doing to humanity is a holocaustal crime against humanity and it should be known by everyone and prevented from continuing.

Wednesday, May 4, 2022

The Dreaded Sticky Stuff

Since I took down most of the two primary blogs, that I was writing in since 2011, I am feeling like I should repost some of my experiences with the targeting. I hope it helps to validate other genuine Targeted Individuals... 

 In the past two days it appears that something sticky was put onto the cap of my little battery operated blender. I had not noticed it right away and rubbed my eyes with my fingers and now have an infection in my eye. I am not sure if this is what caused the infection, but it happened at the same time, so it most likely is. (I'm washing my eye with a bit of baking soda and sea salt disolved in water and it seems to be helping.)
    I have felt that those who target me were drugging me with the sticky stuff they have often put on surfaces I frequently touch, but there also appears to be some sort of fungi or bacteria in it. Its sticky and hard to remove with normal cleaners. (Its like the stuff they have also sprayed on my windshields, in order to prevent me from seeing through it when it rained.) They used to put it on my steering wheel, on door handles, on the money they'd have their puppets give me, when I've had to beg for help on the streets, and on the public toilet seats I'd used on a regular basis. But I have been avoiding these things as much as possible. I now even use a bucket in my back seat, to poop and pee in, instead of using public bathrooms most of the time. But its impossible to protect myself from all of it while living in a vehicle that they can access and while having nobody here to help me protect my belongings when I have to leave my car to go into stores for necessities. I have to go into stores to get food and I have to sleep and these things make me and my car/home and belongings too vulnerable, which is VERY frustrating, to say the least.
    I feel deeply violated with all aspects of the targeting, but especially the parts where they intrude upon my body or my writings or my car/home/personal space.
    I do not even do normal pharmaceuticals whenever I can avoid them, so criminals forcing chemicals into my body feels like a horribly intrusive violation to me, even more so than the microwaves and laser shots they have been violating my body with on a regular basis. They have also stolen some of my journals and print outs from my car...etc. Its all just too horribly wrong!

Please do not assume that I am crazy. This is what those who target me want you to think. The truth is that this is NOT "paranoid schizophrenia" - its real targeting, which is not in the victims imagination and should be far more openly acknowledged and completely stopped from continuing. Most victims have gotten absolutely no validation and no understanding from anyone and this is just too sad. The crimes that are being commited against us are VERY real and extremely inhumane. And the fact that we suffer alone, without validation or understanding or the types of help that can come from these two things, makes the crimes FAR worse than they would otherwise be. Please give us the benefit of your doubt.

P.S. Since the summer of 2011 my primary blog was at www.sharonpoet-ti.blogspot.com and later also at www.yearnforfreedom.blogspot.com. I used these from the summer of 2011 to the time when I started this blog at sharonrosepoet.blogspot.com.
    I recently had a dream that showed people now thinking that I am copying someone else, because of my previous writings being mostly taken down. I have thought about reposting the heart of those old blogs, but am concerned that more will be altered or erased in them if I access them now. They have already been tampered with, through erasing things and changing dates of posts...etc., and I do not want more to happen to them. The same sorts of things have been done to my books. I've had a serious problem with computer infiltrations that interfere with my blog and book writings and also with being forced to change publishers and being forced to rewrite books...etc. Hopefully people will understand and listen to the Heart of their own instincts.
    There is a lot more in my books than there is in my blogs. My most recent books are published with Barnes and Noble and some are still on Amazon and all the latest editions are on my website; www.poeticpublications.com

Friday, April 29, 2022

Shining a Light on it

 The dark does not exist where a Light is shone on it!


We just have to keep shining Lights on all aspects of the covert targeting - keep bringing it out into the open - keep exposing it with heart and truth and honesty - keep stopping it until it has vanished completely. And in order to keep doing it we have to start doing it on a larger scale. The heart of a LOT of good people should be standing up and shining Lights into the darkness - exposing it and chasing it away.

Thursday, April 28, 2022

The Worst Kind of Death

The worse type of death is the death of our natural spirituality. And it appears that this has been the primary aim in the evil targeting of humanity from the start. This is why native people, who avoided modern pharmaceuticals and the religions that were being forced upon them, were so heavily targeted in the catholic residential schools and beyond. 

   In the dream I recently had, those of us who are being targeted were all intentionally inflicted with the same physical illness and it was an illness that makes our limbs go numb - its an illness that can literally force us into medical treatement and being completely dependent on other people - its an illness that ripps away our independence and can be used to destroy all aspects of our freedoms, including our inner freedom. (I am already noticing signs of it in the past few months - it is already happening.)
   It appears that the targeting has shifted to us being put onto a hit list for the destruction of our inner freedom and spirituality through forced "medical treatment," which has played a HUGE roll in the targeting of humanity all along. Those of us who are now on this hit list are probably all people who are aware of the targeting and have lost trust in modern medicine and would not ever freely choose to take the brain and feeling numbing pharmaceuticals...etc. Physically disabling us would force it and also leave us far more succeptable to other parts of the targeting as well, because it could force us to be completely at the mercy of people who are controlled by those who target us and are a danger to us - it could and surely will literally force us into unsafe and harmful environments, if it is not stopped.
   I pray that all aspects of the targeting will be stopped and that we will be set free BEFORE we are hurt more than we already have been - no intentionally inflicted physical illnesses - no being forced into places where we can be harmed psychologically and spiritually or in any other way...etc.

According to other dreams I've had, there are many types of illnesses they can inflict upon people whom they want to force into controlled environments; blindness is one of them too. It can actually be anything that forces people to be unable to take care of themselves physically. Laser/microwave weapons can remotely cause various types of nerve and muscle and bone and organ damage. And the parasite and chemical parts of the targeting causes damage as well. All aspects of the evil targeting must be fully exposed and stopped ASAP, for the health and safety of all of humanity, but espeically for those of us who remained more free and are now on a hit list for complete destruction. God, help us all.

P.S. After I publicly exposed a group of us being inflicted with the same limb numbing illness they had a puppet say, "OK. I'll do it another way."  :-(

Tuesday, April 26, 2022

Dream of Death

Last night I had a dream of death. In the dream I am with a group of native people and we are dieing from something that is making our bodies slowly stop functioning. In the dream I know it is not natural - that we are being killed and I start sobbing uncontrollably. Then I woke. In the dream I am separate from the Natives, but am also part of that group of them that is being killed.

I beg aware officials to let your Hearts openly stand up for us and be fully here for us.


Dream of Death
copyright 4-26-2022 Sharon Rose Poet

The cardinals screached a warning
On this sad death dream morning.
Then I was distracted by a call
From a heart that dare not fall.
But the cold hard truth remains
Inside of my own unshed pains,
And benieth my growing fear.
That hell is far too near.
If only I were free to choose
The way that we all can not lose.
I've begged to no obvious avail.
But my train is now off its rail.
I hope for freedom and healing
To reach us before the stealing.
Our lives may not matter to anyone
Who knows what has been being done,
But they matter to them and me.
If only all hearts could see.
Oh cast us, Lord, Your Light
And end this torturous night;
Set us all completely free -
The way it was meant to be.
Then help us all to forgive
Those who did not dare to give.
Cast us deep into pure Love
So the hell can be risen above.

P.S. The worse type of death is the death of our natural spirituality. And it appears that this has been the primary aim in the evil targeting of humanity from the start. This is why native people, who avoided modern pharmaceuticals and the religions that were being forced upon them, were so heavily targeted in the catholic residential schools and beyond.

In the dream, those of us who are being targeted were all intentionally inflicted with the same physical illness and it was an illness that makes our limbs go numb - its an illness that can literally force us into medical treatement and being completely dependent on other people - its an illness that ripps away our independence and can be used to destroy all aspects of our freedoms, including our inner freedom. (I am already noticing signs of it in the past few months - it is already happening.)
   It appears that the targeting has shifted to us being put onto a hit list for the destruction of our inner freedom and spirituality through forced "medical treatment," which has played a HUGE roll in the targeting of humanity all along. Those of us who are now on this hit list are probably all people who are aware of the targeting and have lost trust in modern medicine and would not ever freely choose to take the brain and feeling numbing pharmaceuticals...etc. Physically disabling us would force it and also leave us far more succeptable to other parts of the targeting as well, because it could force us to be completely at the mercy of people who are controlled by those who target us and are a danger to us - it could and surely will literally force us into unsafe and harmful environments, if it is not stopped.
   I pray that all aspects of the targeting will be stopped and that we will be set free BEFORE we are hurt more than we already have been - no intentionally inflicted physical illnesses - no being forced into places where we can be harmed psychologically and spiritually or in any other way...etc.

According to other dreams I've had, there are many types of illnesses they can inflict upon people whom they want to force into controlled environments; blindness is one of them too. It can actually be anything that forces people to be unable to take care of themselves physically. Laser/microwave weapons can remotely cause various types of nerve and muscle and bone and organ damage. And the parasite and chemical parts of the targeting causes damage as well. All aspects of the evil targeting must be fully exposed and stopped ASAP, for the health and safety of all of humanity, but espeically for those of us who remained more free and are now on a hit list for complete destruction. God, help us all.

P.S. After I publicly exposed a group of us being inflicted with the same limb numbing illness they had a puppet say, "OK. I'll do it another way."  :-(

Thursday, April 7, 2022

Tortured Again!

The night before last I experienced life threatening laser shots to my throat. Then the next morning, in the first place I walked into, they had someone play the song, "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger..." This is typical of an attack that punishes me for saying something that those who targeet me do not want me to say. This sort of attack has happened to me many times - more than I could even begin to count. I've been hit hard lately.

I rarely write about the tortures because I focus on ignoring them and pushing forward, in order to survive. But I feel a need to share this example of one type of laser weapon attack.

Sunday, April 3, 2022

Update on the Fund Raiser

The only financial help I have gotten thus far is still the one twenty dollar donation and one fifty dollar check. But I also got an offer to go live in a condo with a man in a city, but I feel sure that this would not be safe for me.

  The truth is, like I said at the bottom of the fundraiser, I have to get my own place to live in, due to the targeting and my need for privacy and safety and peace and healing. This is what would be safest for me as well as for other people.

   Aside from the stalking parts of the targeting, which has zoomed in and tried to lure me to various places, there is also the microwave and laser weapon attacks and the mind control parts, which can swing onto people whom I get close to. Unaware people have absolutely no defense against it. And aware people would have to have microwave blockers...etc., which are illegal for common citizens to have. Please read my recent article on the mind control part of the targeting; https://sharonrosepoet.blogspot.com/2022/03/the-mind-control.html

My old Article on the Mind Control
http://www.targetedinamerica.com/mindcont.html

Friday, April 1, 2022

A Painful Day

Torture levels of microwave targeting vamped up after I spoke and wrote about the mind control part of the targeting again. Its been a painful day with my torso and shoulder being lasered as well as my lungs this morning.

Thursday, March 31, 2022

Another Glance at the Mind Control

I had a hard time believing the mind control part of the radio wave targeting. But as I digested professional reports and a few of the testimonies of genuine victims (between 2011 and 2013), and I looked back through my life and that of my loved ones, many confusing puzzle pieces began clicking together and I knew it was real.
    It appears that families of indigenous people were used for experimentation and also are now victims of ongoing sadistic targeting that aims to deprive or torture or steal from or recruit or just manipulate in cruel games...etc. My grandmother was a Native American in Canada and I believe that the targeting of my family most likely started there and was also in the catholic schools they were forced to attend in my mother and grandmother's generations. 
    But Native people are nearly not be the only ones who are victims of the mind control parts of the targeting. And people whom torture victims get close to are VERY apt to be effected by it, in order to prevent the proper kinds of support or help. This can make things confusing and psychologically harmful to both parties...etc.

The global pharmaceutical problem is directly linked to wide spread technological (radio wave) mind control. People are more controllable/impressionable when they are taking certain types of brain numbing pharmaceuticals, like antidepressants and antianxiety pills...etc. Much of humanity is now affected through the general numbing of the brain with mass distribution of these types of pharmaceuticals, (which are now even being found in some public water supplies), and by the radio waves that flood most communities around the globe. It appears that subtle brainwashings have been happening on a VERY large scale.
    But this situation is much worse in heavily targeted families, especially for individuals who have been inflicted with microchip implants during surgeries (like for tonsil removal) or dental work...etc.

In targeted families mind control can affect victims in multiple ways, AT STRATEGIC TIMES, and include but are not nearly limited to making a person...

feel confused
feel mentally numb
forget important things
laugh at inappropriate times
repeat things over and over again
feel sexually aroused or impotent
feel like they are in love
misperceive important things
crave unhealthy foods or substances
not be able to stop an addiction
be obsessed with certain things
have repetitive thoughts
be drawn to certain people or places
be blocked from their own natural spirituality
be blocked from their own heart/compassion
be emotionally blocked or be over-emotional
believe false things
disbelieve true things
say things they do not mean
feel anxious or depressed or angry
think negatively or positively
feel euphoria or doom...etc.

   The radio wave mind control is not at all noticeable to unaware victims. They think they are following their own hearts and instincts, but aren't really. And sadly, they often think there is something wrong with them, when there isn't. They tend to blame themselves or each other because they are not aware of the crime that has been being committed against them.
    In more severe forms of mind control it appears that victims can experience periods of being drugged and made to do things they would not normally do. On the severest levels it appears that the radio wave and pharmaceutical mind control can also make a person even become violent or can cause brain damage and completely change a person's personality - completely control/enslave a person's mind...etc. (I think some of the mass shootings have probably been being done by severe mind control victims.)
    But even in its mildest forms, the pharmaceutical and radio wave mind control has been destroying many people's lives and manipulates our world in many negative ways. Its been literally destroying the Heart of humanity. It has to be fully exposed and stopped, in order for freedom and recovery to take place for all of humanity, but especially for heavily targeted families and individuals.

Torture levels of the radio wave targeting are noticeable to aware victims because it causes physical pain and happens at strategic times. My experiences have been mostly with the torture levels of the targeting, which have often included painful laser shots to various parts of my body, (including regular sexual assaults), and painful or debilitating microwave weapon attacks, which drain my energy and cause physical pain. I have experienced a lot of life threatening microwave and laser weapon attacks and minder ones have been an ongoing part of the targeting that I experience.
    But I have also experienced most of the things in the list above, at strategic times. And I have directly witnessed ALL of these things in MANY people who are primarily mind control victims. Many people are truly not as free as they think they are, especially in targeted families and people whom we associate with.

I hope you are free enough to feel the truth in this, especially if you are an official who can help stop it from continuing. Please share this article with other people. There is more in my Technological Holocaust book and in my Yearn for Freedom books. www.poeticpublications.com And there are free articles on www.targetedinamerica.com

P.S. It appears that I have experienced less of the mind control and more of the other parts of the covert targeting, because I was creative and wrote songs and poetry since I was a child; they seem to have wanted me to be able to keep producing material for them to steal. I portray some of this plagiarizing part of the targeting in my "Road Missed by a Lyricist" book. And I have no doubt that far more of my writings were stolen, than the few things I've noticed. They have literally made millions of dollars (possibly billions) from the theft of my work, while they sabotaged my life and my efforts to succeed with my own writings.
   I also experience rounds of covert harasssment and horrible physical tortures that are obviously performed with microwave and laser weapons, especially since I started realizing and writing about the targeting. Instead of killing me or frying my brain (like they have done to many other aware victims) they have repeatedly tried to literally torture me into silence.
   They have me trapped in a destitute and homeless and isolated situation and seem to have gained control of everything and every one around me, at least to some degree. The physical and emotional pain they have inflicted upon me is astronomical. I desperately need to be free of all aspects of the targeting so that I can live my life the way I am supposed to.
   I have been waiting for officials who are aware and whose hearts can be here for me. And I hope it happens before its too late for me. I hope its not already too late for me to fully recover from what those who target me have done to me and live in peace for at least the last couple decades of my life. I am now in my sixties and I have lost many decades of my life that I need to make up for, for my own sake as well as that of many other people. (But it appears that the plagiarizing part of the targeting of me is over and they now want to get rid of me completely.)

Wednesday, March 30, 2022

Horrid Manipulations

   Those who target me obviously do not want my father's welfare to be checked into since my older sisters took complete control of my father and his estate. I have been deeply concerned that my sisters may tear my father out of his home and shove him into a nursing home so that they can get more money sooner, instead of letting him be taken care of in his own home, if he reaches the point of not being able to take care of himself. My father wants to stay in his own home until his "last breath."

This is not about money to me. Even though I am in desperate need of it, I do not want to get it through my father's death. I have always felt that it is a bit morbid get money from someone's death, let alone wait for or expect it...etc. And greed has never been one of my issues. Money for myself has not been my focus with this, although some people seem to foolishly assume it is. I actually told my father to take me out of his will, twice, just to get my sisters off of his back. So I have not been expecting anything for myself even if my sisters were not in control. But what they had done to manipulate this situation was horribly cruel to both my father and I and this is what concerns me - the fact that they seem to not be capable of genuine care for him and are now in complete control of his life.
   My father's money and will was VERY OBVIOUSLY one of their greedy focuses back in 2003, after he started obtaining substantial amounts of money through subdividing and selling off his farm. This became VERY evident to me when they fabricated an email, which made it look like I had written something about me getting all of my fathers money for myself when he dies. I know this was done, because my father fully believed that I had written it and openly confronted me about it. (My second oldest sister tends to project her darkness onto me and this was no exception to that rule.) It shocked me that my father believed that of me. It actually hurt me a lot! But I think it hurt him even more. I'll never forget the pain I heard in my father's voice as he lased into me about things I had not even written! Events around this proved to me that my second oldest sister had done this through infiltrating my email account.
   What my sisters wanted happened - my father lost trust in me and I told him to take me out of his will. I now believe that my sisters did that so that he would not choose my oldest brother and I as executors of his will. Prior to that, my father knew that my oldest brother and I were the only team of two, inside the family, that would have been the most fair with everyone else and would have also worked well together.
    My sister's manipulations to take over my fathers money has been in the works since they knew he started getting more of it. And they have gained control through manipulations that have been destroying his relationships with his other children. In recent years, as my father reached a vulnerable old age, my second oldest sister manipulated my oldest brother out of my father's life, through instigating a fight between them, and then she zoomed in to finish taking complete control of my father and his estate and will.
    My sisters have manipulated my father and the whole situation through fabricating things and instigating fights between him and his other children, causing so much turmoil that we just throw our hands up in the air and walked away. My oldest brother and I both did this and I just heard that my younger brother recently also told my father to take him out of his will. (I do not know what instigated this, but something did.)
    My older brother is back in my father's life but has been being distracted and overwhelmed with difficulties in his life literally EVERY time he has aimed to check into my fathers legal documents, in order to make sure they enable him to be well taken care of in his own home for the rest of his life. I just recently tried again to get him to do that and chaos broke loose yet another time to prevent it. I have no doubt that the turmoil in his life has been being inflicted with the radio wave part of the targeting, because it has been vamping up on me at these times too. Those who watch me and target me VERY obviously do not want my father's welfare to be taken care of by anyone but my two sisters. And this is VERY disturbing. Its so hard to be watching it all play out and not be able to do anything about it.

To my sisters it has all always been about money and control and their hateful jealousies and with the second oldest one it has also been about seeking vengeance. I believe that my sisters are not even capable of genuinely caring about my father very much, beyond the fake masks of kindness they wear for him and other people. Both have treated him with such utterly careless cruelty that it defies description. What they did to him in order to destroy his relationship with me soars beyond cruel. Its evil. They would not be able to do that to him if they cared about him. And now they have complete control of what happens to my father in his final few years!
   A sad part is that my father now fully trusts my sisters and not the rest of us. Their manipulations have been VERY sly and have been being set up to make their victims (especially me) look like the bad ones. My father used to know how jealous and mean my sisters could be, and how much genuine heart I have always had, but he no longer does - he appears to have been brainwashed! And there seems no hope for him realizing the truth now because his mind has recently been faultering a bit. (I hope they are not drugging him and that his faultering is natural!)

Unfortunately I can't directly do anything about any of it since my sisters convinced my father that I am crazy and untrustworthy. (I think the mind control part of the targeting was also involved in this.) So I have tried to get my oldest brother to take care of him, but the targeting has vamped up on him literally every time he has aimed in that direction in the past year. He and his wife appear to be unaware mind control victims.

Most of the obvious stuff has been done by my second oldest sister, but I believe that BOTH of my sisters are as together on the cruel process of taking control of my father's estate as they always have been in their cruel process of targeting me with their hate and jealousy. I have hoped to stop them by exposing this publicly - by forcing them to keep their masks of kindness on for the sake of my father's wellbeing, but I do not know if it will help at this point. And so much damage has already been done its heart wrenching. It seems too late for too much. With this post and last nights email I sent to my brothers and the sudden turmoil that is distracting at least one of them from even getting and reading it (again!), I am letting go and excepting the fact that there is nothing more I can do.
    My heart aches for my father and the fact that he is still being deprived of my love and my presence in his life, because of the cruelty in my sisters and the other parts of the targeting. It is too late for him to see the truths in this lifetime, but my consolation is that I believe he will be able to see everything clearly after his time in this body is finished. I wish for him to live out the rest of his life surrounded by peace and compassion and it hurt so much that he is surrounded by a darkness that he is not aware of. Its really hard to accept this. It hurts so much!

P.S. I am worried about my brothers too; my brothers, as well as my father, are all unaware mind control victims. I also feel for my sisters; I am certain that the dark sides of their nature would not have grown so much if they were not also victims of the sadistic targeting that has hurt us all. They may have decided to join it and directly be a part of it, but they would not have even had that opportunity if it had not intruded upon our lives. It is sad that their hearts have been so blocked. Their situation is sad too. I do not like going up against them here, but I feel that I must because it is not right to just silently sit back and let the darkness win and its the only way I can help my father. Even if it does not help my father, perhaps it will help other victims of similar things. God help us all.

Monday, March 28, 2022

Contemplating the Ideal Life...

    I watched an interesting movie last night. It was about a couple who woke to find that they appeared to be the only human beings left on earth. Everyone else had vanished without a trace. These two people perceived the situation in opposite ways; one seeing opportunities to have whatever they wanted and the other seeing mostly doom. I wondered what I would feel if this happened to me and was reminded of a poem I wrote in the mid to late 1990s...


If I were the only human left 
On Earth's vast depleted nest, 
Alone is somethings I'd feel less, 
For I am drowning in the depths 
Of its crowded emptiness.

   That poem was about the shallowness of a place I'd had to move to and me missing dear friends whom I'd been close to before the move...etc. But I had never felt the depths of that "crowded emptiness", like I have since I was isolated to be tortured and harassed in the dark covert targeting that has been happening to many people in our troubled world.

   If I experienced what that couple in the movie experienced I'd be VERY happy, because I'd be free - nobody left to harass me or shoot me with microwaves and laser weapons. I don't want everyone else to vanish, but if they did I'd love the freedom and I'd thrive in it. I'd miss people, but right now there is not much left in my life to miss, because nobody has been fully here for me, in the ways I need people to be, since the mid 1990s. Like I used to say about my marriage and the place I'd moved to then; its easier for me to be alone by myself than it is for me to be alone while surrounded by other people. I've always felt this way.
   I'm not a complete loner though. I love being with people almost as much as I love peaceful solitude in nature. The types of people, whom I enjoy the most are people who have deep open hearts and are deep thinkers - people who are growing and evolving. Most of the world has always felt too shallow to me and I now understand why more than I ever have before...

I feel that the ideal life is all people being completely free - their HEARTS and minds not being blocked by anything, especially not by the pharmaceuticals and radio waves that now appear to have most of humanity enslaved. This is what I want - COMPLETE FREEDOM FOR ALL OF HUMANITY, including me.

I want to be free to fully live my life and to be growing and evolving into all that I can be. Its extremely painful for me to be trapped in the stagnant rut that the targeting shoved me into and holds me in. I truly have been drowning in it and still am. Its not only been holding me back - it has also been slowly destroying me. I want to be free of all aspects of the targeting and to recover from the damage it has done to me, BEFORE its too late to fully do so. And I hope its not too late although it sometimes seems like it already is.

Saturday, March 26, 2022

Celebrating Spring


Celebrating Spring
 copyright 3-26-2022 

 The birds celebrate 
A long awaited Spring. 
My car no longer has 
The debilitating ring. 
And my heart longs for 
The freedom to sing. 
After this long, cold 
And distressing night 
I might just make it - 
I may end up alright, 
If the radio waves 
Stop their attacks 
And I can quickly
Return to my track.

Plea for Our Future

   Last week I had several dreams of fire and flood disasters. I feel that at least some were symbolic of what has been happening in my life...