Thursday, February 15, 2024

Old Painful Issues Raised by Hate and Greed

(This is a revised version of what I'd posted yesterday)

This is a take-off from my previous post, because I was just proven partially wrong about something I'd blamed only my sister for. And this is also a public response to an email from my sister and her daughter...

My sister just sent another extremely dishonest and mentally abusive email through her daughter and her daughter's email account. She seems to think that she can project her greed and hate onto me and dishonestly twist everything around and rewrite history, in order to cover her own wrongs and make me the bad guy. (Nothing new here.)
   But with the email she also sent a letter that my father appears to have written in 2007. I do not trust anything that comes through her, but this letter appears authentic. The primary issue, that my sister had raised between my father and I, in her fabricated emails in 2002/2003, came to a head in the 2006/2007 winter when I confronted him. So, my father was really upset with me, at that time, because it was right after we had our first and only argument.
   In this letter my father vengefully cuts me out of his will and lies - says that I accused the whole family of something. The truth is that I only accused him, and it was not a false "accusation" - it was a confrontation. It appears that my father lied in order to make my siblings not want me to return to the family, because what I confronted him with was something that he wanted to keep hidden so badly that he'd and my sister even aimed to destroy my sanity, in order to accomplish it. It appears that my father was more dishonest than I'd previously thought. (I now realize that this is probably where my sister got the habit of lying to cover up her own wrong doings, instead of owning them and resolving issues and making things better instead of worse....and of manipulatively pitting other people against her target.)
So it appears that it was not my sister and was my father who first claimed that I had accused the whole family and not just him. However, the fact that the old issue, from almost two decades ago, was being re-raised by my sister (or both sisters) in 2015 and 2021, in order to manipulate our father and keep me cut out of his will AFTER my father and I had re-connected and found forgiveness, is indisputable. I KNOW that my father would not have done that on his own in 2015, and especially not in 2021, because we had BOTH forgiven each other and had let it go long before then.
   THIS RECENT RESSURECTION OF THE OLD ISSUE WAS SURELY MY SISTER'S DOING. SO, EVEN IF HE WROTE THE 2007 LETTER SHE SENT ME, OF HIS OWN FREE WILL, AND WITHOUT HIS UPSET BEING TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF BY EITHER OF MY SISTERS, IT HAS NO LEG TO STAND ON NOW, NOT SINCE MY FATHER AND I FORGAVE EACH OTHER AND PUT THIS ISSUE BEHIND US. So, I STILL HOLD MY SISTER RESPONSIBLE BECAUSE SHE IS RESPONSIBLE, NOT ONLY FOR RESSURRECTING AN OLD ISSUE THAT WAS TOO PAINFUL FOR BOTH MY FATHER AND I, BUT ALSO FOR RAISING IT BETWEEN MY FATHER AND I TO BEGIN WITH. (My sister is the one who actually created the problem between my father and I, with her 2002/2003 fabricated email scheme.) And she should never have resurrected it in the past decade, for everyone's sake, especially my father's. What they did to upset him with their hate and greed in his final years is utterly despicable, and its their cross to bear not my father's and not mine. Period.

I believe in getting to the root of a problem rather than just blaming or treating the symptoms or reactions to it. Regardless of the symptoms; Vivian created the root of the problem between my father and I, with fabricated emails in the winter of 2002/2003. And she (and possibly others) are also responsible for resurrecting it long AFTER my father and I had found a place of forgiveness. So, my father's 2007 letter, does NOT absolve her of what she is responsible for. It just let me know that my father lied too, possibly first, and that he and Vivian's shadow sides were more alike than I'd previously realized. 

Vivian's/Jennifer's email was also VERY obviously designed to upset me and make me fear for my safety and freedom. Aside from it sharing the 2007 letter, it also shared the usual fabrications and aimed to fuel my fear of my family institutionalizing me. It actually put on "helpful" pretenses as it tries to build a case against my sanity, using my poverty/homelessness and my belief in microwave targeting, and my reporting their abuse to the FBI and law enforcement, as proof of insanity. Their case is extremely weak, to say the least, because it dishonestly twists things around and leaves out important and provable facts. They can not save face through trying to prove their "insane" lie true.
   They actually have the audacity to now pretend that being poor and homeless is proof of insanity, even though THEY- my own family has intentionally deprived me, in order to keep me trapped in poverty, for over a decade now! How much sense does that make? In the email they also pretend they have always just wanted to help me, but there is a lot of proof of them doing the complete opposite throughout the past as well as right now. When they first started the hateful "insane" game against me, I was not homeless and I knew nothing about microwave targeting and I was already in counseling and they ALL knew it. So their pretenses and dishonesty are VERY obvious to everyone who knows the full and factual history since 2002. They know the truth too - my sister and niece are just playing an evil game. The hate in Vivian and her daughter, and their dark manipulations of others, is VERY evident in many places. And the bottom line is that, any decent people, who genuinely thought their loved one was insane, would do the complete opposite of what my family has done to me for over two decades. No ifs ands or buts about it.

No matter what they do or say, to try to justify their dishonest and hateful and abusive and thieving ways, or to try to hide their own wrong doings, they can not justify or hide them anymore. I stand strong; I now trust my own sanity and the wise psychologist who told me to stay away from Vivian after she talked to her and realized that she is the one who has the problem. I don't know who Vivian/Jennifer are trying to fool with that email, but they sure can't fool me anymore. I know the truth now.

The truth is still the same, no matter how many lies
 and pretenses they try to change it with.

This last deceitful and mentally abusive email was sent just before a round of my younger brother texting me and intensely trying to coerce me into meeting with him. He said he'd only give me a copy of my father's will if I met with him in person...etc. I didn't bite the hook, even though I did not read the email until the next day, because I'd had a dream that warned me of both of my brothers zooming in to open a door for my ill intending sisters to get to me.

ITS A VERY DIFFICULT THING TO HAVE TO DEAL WITH - A FAMILY THAT IS TOO HORRIBLY DISHONEST AND MENTALLY ABUSIVE AND HATEFUL AND VENGEFUL TO BE SAFE. BUT THEN, I REALLY DO NOT HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT...

Last night, after uploading my first version of this post, I sent my family the following email; "To my family, I am taking some needed time to myself, until further notice. So, please only contact me through snail mail IF IT IS SOMETHING REALLY IMPORTANT and non-abusive."

P.S. I actually did not even really want to see my father's trust/will, especially if I am not in it. I had sent my family emails, asking my sisters to share my father's will and their plans for his estate, primarily because I intuitively knew they had more stabbings coming and I wanted to get it over with as fast as possible, so that I could put it all behind me. I was right. And now that part is over. I didn't really want my share of the inheritance either, but I do need the financial help, in order to get back onto my own feet and take better care of myself. And I did not want to refuse the inheritance, no matter what they stabbed me with, in order to try to make me slam the door and give it up, because that would have enabled their theft. So, my stand is still cast in stone - if they deprive me, in order to feed their greed and hate, its their choice, not mine. But still, I am not expecting anything.

Tuesday, February 13, 2024

The Trouble With Fabrications and Blocked Hearts

One part of the directive, which I believe my sister dishonestly wrote, said that I'd told my father that I did not want to be a part of the family or anyone associated with it. And it also implies that I had accused some of my siblings of something, which is not true. Just two words - "and others," in the directive appears to have stirred up a lot of trouble against me since my younger brother secretly read it a few years ago. After he read the will he started bringing up all the wrongs I'd done in my childhood and life, and even adding to them, literally every time we spoke. We have not spoken much because of this. I had to keep slamming walls up against the discord.
   Through that time I had foolishly assumed that my father may have given me too much in his will, in efforts to try to compensate for what he and the family have done to me, and that this is why my brother was so upset with me. Now I realize that it was actually the complete opposite, it was yet another round of my sister's dishonest hate that triggered even more hate against me, in dishonest statements that were actually being used as an excuse to take me out of my father's will.
   I find it disturbing that my brother lashed out at me, instead of talking to me about it, and that my sisters used my father's death as yet another opportunity to hurt me and turn my brothers against me. This scenario is nothing knew, at all, but they should have refrain from such behaviors at time like this, instead of vamping them up. If only my sisters were not so dishonest and manipulative and so hatefully wanting to cause trouble between me and other family members. But they have been this way for as long as I can remember. And I now realize that I'd be a fool to expect it to be any other way.

The trouble with fabrications is that many people tend to blindly believe them, instead of questioning them.

And the trouble with blocked hearts is that they tend to lash out, when confronted, instead of calmly talking it out or looking in the mirror.

Unfortunately we all have blocked hearts, to some degree, thanks to the societal suppression of feelings, and the numbing pharmaceuticals, and the street drugs (including marijuana), and certain frequencies of radio waves...etc. A LOT of freedom and positive change is needed in my family and in our whole world. If only we were all free.

Another Computer Infiltration

I wrote a few emails to my siblings, as I processed the slam my sisters sent in the directive. And parts of those emails appear to have been altered in my computer. Below is one example of this. Its amazing how the erasing of just two words or a period can completely alter the meaning of a sentence or paragraph. The period and the "I" were erased in this one....

"I am totally sure that the "and others in the family" part of this directive is just yet another one of Vivians manipulative hurtful and troublemaking schemes. I have NEVER said anything to anyone about any sort of ..." 

Have my sisters infiltrated my computers through me opening emails they sent or inn some other way? In more than one place, my saying that "I can picture my father writing part of this", has been turned into statements that make it look like I was saying that I can picture him writing the whole thing and not just parts of it. I'm sure there is more, but I've not combed through all the emails. Its just too discouraging. I'm letting it go with this statement.


Wednesday, February 7, 2024

Facing a Painful Reality

Some people throw their loved ones up on an undeserved pedestal after they die, and some people face reality. I'm a reality person.

In this situation with my father’s death, and my homeless plight being used, in order to try to finish destroying my sanity, my spirituality, my intuition and my heart, is very painful and is an impossible pill to swallow, literally. (No pun intended.)
   Getting this blow from my father's grave is really hard. And I know that my sister is not 100% to blame. She is the primary culprit in the mentally abusive and depriving directive, as well as in the past issue between my father and I - issues that have existed since she fabricated emails against him from my account in the 2002/2003 winter. But my father had made his own mistakes too - between then and 2013 he had been engaging in the mental abuse against me, just as much as my sister had. And this had been a massive source of pain for me. I thought I'd cried it all out, in 2004 and in the 2006/2007 winter. But I am now experiencing another round of it, because it is again being done to me now.

I actually never had a lot of respect for my father, because I had always noticed the ways that he'd try to make his wife or children jealous, and the ways that he'd put down my wisdom and then repeat it as if it were his own...etc. (I was hurt a lot, by my father's aims to fuel my sister’s jealousy of me, through going way overboard with praising me in front of them.) He was often like a foolish child, to me. And was never much of a parental figure to me. But I deeply loved him, anyway. And it hurts that he never fully returned my love. I know that he loved me as much as he could. Long ago, I had accepted the fact that he was not capable of loving me as much as I had needed him to. But he should never have been actually aiming to hurt me, no matter what my sister wrote in those emails and no matter what his issues were. It just was not fair to me.
   Because my sister has been using and hurting my father, in order to hurt me and sabotage my relationship with my father, since at least 2002, I have mainly and justly blamed her. Even now (in recent years) I am certain that she is the one who is re-raising the old issue, which she'd previously raised between my father and I, in order to hurt and deprive me. But my father made his own mistakes too and they are now pushing their way into the foreground. I had loved my father unconditionally, no matter what he had done to me, but he did not even come close to feeling the same way about me. And this is the painful reality I am now facing. Even though he most likely did not even know what my sister was doing with the directive in 2021, in the deeper past he had gone along with her hateful drive against me in a VERY destructive and painful way...

I wish my father had at least loved me
enough to not want to hurt me.

Tuesday, February 6, 2024

More on the "Insane" Game

The "Insane" Game
copyright 2-5-2024 Sharon Rose Poet

They were lead by greedy hate
And him, by a heartless shame,
In that cruel and careless place
Where they call me "insane."
And too many blind others
Followed their sick game.


The "Insane" Judgements
copyright 2-5-2024 Sharon Rose Poet

"She's poor and lives in a car"
And so "must be insane."
She refused the "treatment"
In her family's evil game.
"She is not important enough"
"She's Just a begger who's lazy"
"Something is wrong with her" -
"She must be totally crazy!"
They all ignored her lupus
They all refrained from care
They all embraced a darkness
That shouldn't even be there.

Monday, February 5, 2024

A Painful Reminder Rose Out of My Father's Grave

My sister sent me "directive" that she says my father wrote. The part that was about me, brought up an old issue that was between my father and I since my sister's fabricated emails and then later me realizing it and confronting him in the 2006/2007 winter. It was surrounded by dishonest statements about things I supposedly said to him at that time. After this, the directive says that I'm not allowed to get my inheritance unless I return to the family and get "treatment" for the "illness" that he and my sisters had proclaimed I have in 2003, after my sister's fabricated emails from my account, about him. If I do these things, what I get, or if I get anything is left up to my sisters.
 
THIS IS YET ANOTHER ROUND OF TRYING TO FORCE ME INTO BEING IMPRISONED IN AN INSTITUTION WHERE IT IS ALMOST A GUARANTEE THAT PSYCHOTROPIC DRUGS AND SHOCK TREATMENTS WOULD DESTROY ME SPIRTUALLY AND PSYCHOLOGICALLY. My father and sisters have always known that I HAD seen a psychologist - that I HAVE been in counseling, so this is NOT about me getting help and IS about hurting me and silencing me and destroying my sanity. This is definitely part of the evil targeting.
 
  I have been trying to figure out how much of this was by father's doing and how much was my sisters doing. And I have come to the conclusion that it was a heavy dose of both - that my sister used an issue, that existed between my father and I, to torment him and abuse and deprive me or have me institutionalized right after my father's death. I never expected an inheritance; I felt that even if my father had me in his will, my sisters would probably see to it that I got nothing. But the directive is a VERY painful blow to me. Even if my sister initially wrote it or pushed him to write it, the fact that my father had been trying to have me institutionalized, even though he KNEW I had already gone into counseling to get help with healing from my difficult childhood, is still a VERY painful reality, that I have been faced with since 2002. The pain, of knowing that my own father cared about me so little that he would have me thought to be insane and imprisoned cut me to the core in 2004 - when I realized why, and I guess I didn't totally cry it all out during my healing sessions in 2004 and 2007, because it still hurts a lot now.
   Its just like my sister to want to deeply stab me at a time when I am already hurting - right after my father's death. She did this to both my father and I right after my youngest brother's death, through fabricating emails against him, from my email account. The cruelty is shocking. It shouldn't shock me anymore, but it still does. But it is more than just her. Its been my whole family either going along with it, or being deceived and pulled along by it.

I loved my father and I forgave him, even though he'd made some grave mistakes and never was much of a father to me. And finding out that his "love" and "forgiveness"," in the past decade, was only empty and dishonest words, hurts a lot. Its easy to blame my sisters, because their jealous hate did not want him to even care about me, and had fueled and used the old issue (between my father and I) to hurt both of us. But it was him too. And its time for e to face the full scope of this. This has been VERY difficult for me, because its not been just a painful lack of love for me, in my family, its been an evil drive to hurt me and deprive me and destroy my sanity. My own father wanting to destroy my sanity, in order to hide his little mistake. It hurts like hell.

My father had refused to help me, financially, after I was shoved into poverty by covert targeting that even stole my bank account, unless I checked myself into an institution. He and my whole family knows that I do not do drugs and that I do not drink alcohol and that I am not suicidal and that I do not harm people and that I HAVE been in counseling - (counceling that my father had initially actually tried to stop me from continuing!) But still, no help to get back onto my own feet, unless I get institutionalized. To most people this makes no sense at all, because most families would actually do the complete opposite; if a family member was really thought to be mentally ill they would help them even more, because of it, not less. It makes no sense, because its part of the evil targeting and the aim is to hurt me and silence me and destroy my sanity under the guise of "help" in a place that uses electric shock "treatements" to wipe out people's memories and psychiatric pharmaceuticals to block their spirituality and hearts and make them more manipulatable/brainwashable. Did my own father want to destroy me this way, in order to cover up the "issue"? It appears so.

This has been the most painful thing I've ever had to face! But I believe it even more now, because of what I recently saw in a vision. I saw a shocking darkness in my father and uncle. And I think it has probably always been there, because my father used to deprive me, and intentionally fuel my sister's jealousy of me...etc., when I was a child as well as in my adult life. Perhaps this is where my sister got the sneeky manipulative hurtful stuff from. Me being the complete opposite - having a lot of heart, made me their target in MANY subtle ways, but in some very obvious ones too. What is happening now, with the directive, is very obvious.


This is part of a statement I wrote for my siblings...

Well... I've covered both sides of this. As I processed it I went back and forth - was it Dad or was it Vivian (and probably Evelyn too) who wrote the directive? And I have come to the conclusion that it was definitly both. Below are the bare facts...

1. The "directive" was written in 1015 and revised in the fall of 2021. Around 2015 Vivian had found out that I was connecting with Dad and was on a rampage against me and was trying to reset a wall between Dad and I. This was when I had my last conversation with her. In that conversation she had said, "Stay out of New Boston" before she viciously spit out "You are evil and I am going to protect my father from you." I hung up on her.
    And the late summer and fall of 2021 appears to be when Vivian and Evelyn found out that I was talking to both Gerry and Dad and was setting Dad up with a diet plan...etc. It was after this that they also reconnected with Gerry, started the family emails and appear to have even set Dad up with a new TV and phone that he and his communications could be monitored through. There is not a doubt in my mind that my sisters either reraised 'the issue' with Dad or had him sign that revised directive without him knowing what he was signing. If they had reraised it with him I think it would have been evident in my conversations with him. One of my best conversations with Dad was AFTER the date of the 2021 revision. Was he that two faced? I'm not sure.

2. I doubt that Dad would have wanted this issue being exposed in the family when he died. That I know of, nobody but Vivian knew about it until right after Gerry had set up the family meeting for Dad in 2022. That was when Mike said to me, "Vivian told me that you accused Dad of sexual abuse." Then I addressed it with my siblings, and shouldered the blame. Point being, that was not until 2022 - several months AFTER the directive was revised.

3. It is possible that, in 2021, Dad feared me telling the family after he'd died, if Vivian or Evelyn raised the issue with him again. But I have a hard time believing that Dad wrote some of the dishonest parts of the directive, especially in 2021 when he knew that I WAS already reconnected with the family (him and my brothers) for many years.

I'm sure my sisters expected me to say that I don't want any of the inheritance anyway. I'm not doing that, because I refuse to let greed and jealous hate freely have what it wants to deprive me of. I am making this I firm stand... I WILL NOT GET THE DESTRUCTIVE "TREATEMENT." AND I WILL NOT GET CLOSER TO A FAMILY THAT HURTS ME TOO MUCH AND DISTRUSTS MY SANITY TOO MUCH FOR IT TO BE A HEALTHY OR SAFE PLACE FOR ME. I WILL NOT AGREE TO ANY MANIPULATIVE AND DECIETFUL PLAN MY SISTERS MAY HAVE CONCOCTED, IN ORDER TO HAVE CONTROL OVER MY LIFE AND HURT ME EVEN MORE THAN THEY ALREADY HAVE. AND I WILL NOT ERASE ANY OF MY WRITINGS, IN ORDER TO GET MY INHERITANCE. I WANT MY FULL FAIR SHARE OF THE MONETARY PART OF OUR INHERITANCE TO BE DELIVERED UNCONDITIONALLY.

Whether or not I am allowed to get my fair share of the inheritance is up to my sisters, but its also up to my brothers to go along with them or not. I think we all know how this is going to go. But by making this stand - I can know that I didn't help my sisters to hurt or deprive me...

If there is a sneeky plan to pretend to "help" me, through allowing me to stay in Dad's house or the cabin in Maine, where the neighbors can harass me and my sisters can moniter me or set me up to be hauled off to an institution, THIS IS NOT GOING TO SUCCEED, BECAUSE I WILL NOT GO. PERIOD. (I had a dream warning of this.)

I do not feel comfortable or safe being too close to the family and this is not going to change in the near future, because of my state of overwhelm and the proven levels ill intentions that have and still do exist toward me there. Even just being as close as I have been worries me. One current concern is due to a dream, which warned me about my words being changed in an evil aim to hurt me. Since then I've learned that digital voice recordings can be altered, in order to make it look like a person has said things they didn't say or like a conversation was different from what it really was. I hope my sisters have not been having Mike or anyone else do recordings of my conversations, for this purpose. Mike has recently been VERY pushy about trying to force me to call him, instead of doing text or email just for important things, like I have repeatedly requested. (Unfortunately I bit the hook once in the past year, just a few days ago. I need this to stop.
   There is just too much hate and deceit and ill intentions and sneaky manipulativeness and dishonesty in the family, for me to feel safe or comfortable being too close to it. But I love you all and I still pray for positive change.

You ALL know that I am homeless and that I deeply need enough financial help, in order to get back onto MY OWN feet and get MY OWN home in a place where there is at least a chance for me to be and feel safe. Is my family going to continue intentionally depriving me of this financial help? A bit of time will tell. But I am not expecting anything.

Tuesday, January 23, 2024

Song for my Father


Lead Me Home by Jamey Johnson
https://youtu.be/3rbW8rbpQ9I?si=IUKF1QZTk17Kva82


I share more about my father's passing on this page; 
https://sharonrosepoet.blogspot.com/p/my-fathers-death-and-rebirth.html

Monday, January 22, 2024

Stolen Good-bye

My sisters are not allowing a wake for our father. And I feel that being able to say good-by to a loved one, either when they are on their death bed, or at an open casket wake, is a VERY important and needed closure. A wake for my father was especially important for me, because my sisters had built a hostile wall between him and I, in the last year of his life. Due to this, my plan was to go see him at his wake, and do my own private and peaceful good-bye, after everyone else had left, so that it would not raise any issues for me or anyone else. And being deprived of this feels horrible. Right now its one of my deepest sources of grief.
   My sisters say that this is the way my father wanted it. But I feel absolutely certain that my father did NOT want all of his loved ones, except his two oldest daughters and their children, to be deprived of the chance to say good-bye to him, in person. This was my sister's choice, not his. And its just too wrong.
Because I so deeply grieve this stolen good-bye, there is a little consoling voice, deep inside my heart, that says, "someday you will be able to say good-bye, and even another hello, in a place where they cannot interfere." But I still cry. Right now I just so needed to be able to see him and say good-bye to him.

My heart now aches so, while I cry
I've needed so much to say good-bye


Stolen Good-bye
copyright Sharon Rose Poet 1-20-2024

No wake. No closure.
No chance to say good-bye.
How can they be so mean,
Even right after you die?


The Final Door
copyright Sharon Rose Poet 1-20-2024

She can't hurt him,
To hurt me, anymore;
He's passed through
His final door.
She can't use him
To hurt me, anymore;
His death and wake
Were her final door.


Sorely Missed
copyright Sharon Rose Poet 1-20-2024

I don't now miss Dad anymore than before.
I'd already missed him right down to my core.

I missed the meetings they didn't allow
I missed them then and I miss them now.
I missed the welcome. I missed the care.
I miss what never was even there.
I missed his release from her nigh.
I miss being able to say good-bye.



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https://sharonrosepoet.blogspot.com/p/my-fathers-death-and-rebirth.html

Saturday, January 20, 2024

My Father's Suffering has Ended

He did not have a good and fulfilling life,
But he is now free of the pain and strife.

My father passed away yesterday afternoon. It appears that my sisters are not allowing a wake, depriving all of his loved ones of that deeply needed closure. This should not be surprising to anyone who knows them or this situation. But it is to me. I so needed that closure.
   I feel relieved that he is no longer suffering and is now free. The phrase, "He is now in a better place," applies doubly in this situation. But I grieve his life - especially his last couple years, which were the complete opposite of what he had wanted and needed, and were filled with unnatural suffering and the intentional deprivation of most of his loved ones and his home, which he had wanted to spend the rest of his life in.
   Not being allowed to be there for him, when he needed my heart the most, has been and still is a VERY great source of pain for me, and I know it was for him too. I hope to use my father's situation, as an example to help pass new laws that protect elderly people from greedy children and emotional and mental abuse and intentional deprivation. He was a victim of all these.

My sisters had, on many occasions, severely deceived my father as their jealous hate fabricated things, in order to turn him against me and destroy our relationship. And I have always felt that, when he dies - when his Spirit is free he will finally see the truth about me. So, there is a part of me that wants to stare down my sisters and say, "NOW HE KNOWS THE TRUTH! YOUR DECEPTIONS CAN'T EXIST BEYOND THE GRAVE." But they wouldn't believe me, anyway. "She's crazy" is what they'd say. 

Last night I wrote the following poems as I was doing a small round of grieving my father's final year and also finding comfort in knowing that he is now free of it. At one point, I felt his Spirit here with me...


Father's Ohio Prison
copyright Sharon Rose Poet 1-19-2024

He dared not make a sound.
As he groped on the ground
With no help or care around.

I saw him crying in that chair.
I felt his pain I could not bare.
No heart could even get there
While he suffered in her snare!

He dared not make a sound.
As he groped on the ground
With no help or care around.


Now he Knows the Truth
copyright Sharon Rose Poet 1-19-2024

I want to smugly say to them
Again and again and again,
"Now Dad knows the whole truth
Of your deceptions so uncouth."
Even as he sees what they do
He loves and forgives them too.
I have not yet reached that place
My anger needs to have it's space.
"Now Dad knows the whole truth
Of your deceptions so uncouth."
But they'd not believe me, anyway.
"She's crazy" is what they'd say.


I'm so, so Sorry, Dad
copyright Sharon Rose Poet 1-19-2024

I'm sorry I should have done more
To save you from their darkest door.
I'm not sure what I could have done
While too isolated from everyone.
But there was something, I'm sure.
I'm so, so sorry I didn't do more.


He's OK Now
copyright Sharon Rose Poet 1-19-2024

"I'm OK" I think he may have just said
In my searching gropes inside my head.
Was it him or only what I want to hear?
Was it just a wish in my unshed tear?
Did I really hear, "We love you bum"
Through leaves glowing in the sun?
Yes I did. His time has truly come.
He'll be smiling there with Mom.


Tears of Relief
copyright Sharon Rose Poet 1-19-2024

Here they finally come - tears of deep relief
Instead of the usual mourning in loss grief.
It means so much more than I can ever say,
To know that you are now finally "OK."


A Special Place
copyright Sharon Rose Poet 1-19-2024

Comfort, truth and Love are saved,
In a special place beyond the Grave,
Where freedom opens up the eyes,
And helps the heart to purge - to cry,
So that those who could not see,
Can finally set their Spirits free.


From Father to Son
copyright Sharon Rose Poet 1-19-2024

If he could speak to you he'd say
Words of comfort from the grave,
"I really do love you"
"You do matter too"
"I'm so, so sorry."
"Forgive me."
"I forgive you."
"I'm free."
"I'm me."
"I see."


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https://sharonrosepoet.blogspot.com/p/my-fathers-death-and-rebirth.html

Friday, January 19, 2024

Under Attack

I am experincing a vamp up in microwave weapon attacks and am not feeling well. I'll share more later.

Update on my Father's situation

I’ve not had regular access to my email associated with this blog, for a couple months now. But I’m now able to periodically log in. Yesterday I was told that my father is now on his death bed and only has a few more weeks to live. I also just got an email from the sister, (sent in the first week of December), which blamed my brothers and I for what she had done to prevent us from being there for our father when he needed us most. But she said she forgives us for what she did, so I guess this is supposed to make it all OK. My sisters are trying to save face in emails, but the truth remains VERY evident, because their actions do not fit their words.

I still hope my sisters find their hearts and return OUR father to his home, where he had wanted to remain until his “last breath,” and allow his sons and other loved ones the chance to be there for him in his final weeks. Will they allow his wish to die in his own home and allow his other loved ones the chance to visit him without their usual trouble making interference, now that he is on his death bed? A bit of time will tell.

Friday, November 10, 2023

A VIP Message for all Officials Who Supported Israel's Creation and Continuation

 I understand that a solution seems complicated to many. But it is actually quite simple and obvious, although it will be inconvenient and costly for some people. Its just a matter of knowing right from wrong, and choosing the right way.


A general lesson for you; We should always strive to be kind to, and considerate of, our fellow human beings. We should not mistreat any people, especially not those who believe in seeking vengeance, if we want to live in peace and safety. When we have wronged people, we should find the HEART to undo our mistakes and set things right. And this should happen between countries as well as between neighbors and individuals in our communities...etc.

Since you so severely wronged the Palestinian people, from the start of the creation of Israel, you must undo your mistakes and set things right, in order to have peace and a clean conscience. This is just common sense and common human decency. Please set your egos aside and use your HEARTS. Everyone makes mistakes. Its that we can CARE to correct them and learn from them that matters most.
   Continuing with the same disastrous mistake is not good for you or anyone else. Hamas (or the "Terrorist" claim) is not a valid excuse for what you were doing to the Palestinian people long before Hamas even formed to fight back. There is no valid excuse for what you have done to Palestine and it's people. Its just wrong. Please find the Heart to set things right, not partially, but completely. Please undo the wrongs you have done, and repair the damage you have done, because its the right thing to do.
   Please realize that you should have created your "Jewish State" in a place where you had permission to do so, and realize that you could not gain safety and peace through stealing from and murdering and displacing and abusing the rights of the Palestinian people. The Palestinian people matter just as much as you do. I fact, on their own lands, they matter more than you and the new immigrants do. Please return all of Palestine to its Palestinian people.
   Perhaps most of "Israel's" residents will be willing to live peacefully with Palestinians in a restored Palestine. Hopefully a lot of healing will take place on both sides as they unite. But all who do not have the HEART to be kind and accepting of the Palestinian people, should leave Palestine. Perhaps they can create their own "Zionist" or "Jewish" or "Christian Zionist" (or what ever they want) state in a place where they have permission to do so. And hopefully, this time, they will do it in a better way. Hopefully, they will have learned from their mistakes in Palestine. Hopefully, they will have learned to be considerate and kind - hopefully, they will heal their HEARTS.

There is more on

or on

Care for Palestine

 

Monday, November 6, 2023

PDF for Palestinian Plight

I have backed my stand for Palestine on my website. Please print it out and help spread the word:
 
Care for Palestinian Plight PDF

Vamp up in targeting continues

It appears that I am again getting death threats in the form of dead animals being left. It appeared that I was hit with some sort of chemical the other day. It sort of smelled like a skunk and stung my nostrils. But these things can be done with microwaves effecting the senses too. Not sure what it was. And the general microwaving has again vamped up in the way of making me feel retarded, making it difficult to think straight and write. I have also had a hard time logging into my email and you tube has blocked me at least three times, for no good reason. I am also being harassed on you tube, no more than the usual though. And my computer has been infiltrated again. 

 Care for Palestine Website 

I'm not stopping my stand for the horrid injustice and terrors and crimes that have been happening to the Palestinian people for many decades now. 

FREE PALESTINE!

Saturday, November 4, 2023

Attacked and Blocked on You tube.

   The night before last, I experienced a severe Microwave attack. I didn’t know if I’d survive it. But I did. I’m surprised it didn’t happen sooner, because I’d been standing up for the Palestinian people in foreign media as well as ours, for about ten days. I guess this is OK with them, because they are labeling pro-Palestinian people as “terrorists” and “antisemitic.” So it makes me look bad, even though I’m neither of these things. What appears to have brought on the attack is me starting to post things about the core problem – the mind control part, which I feel is why nobody has done anything to save the Palestinian people and make Israel back out of their decades long invasion and captivity of the resisting Palestinians, and make Israel stop killing them off under the guise of it being a war against “terrorism”…etc.
   Then, I could not log into my account without repeatedly typing in letters that were shown. Then after I got in and started again sharing the mind control stuff, You Tube completely blocked me from doing any comments at all.

As for the radio wave mind control, which is VERY effective on people who are taking the brain numbing and feeling blocking pharmaceuticals; I think that at least some of the Palestinian people (Arab people) have figured it out, and many are not taking the pharmaceuticals, and this is why they still resist the evil control. I’m sure their tunnels help protect them from the radio wave part as well. Smart people.
   But I think the mind control has been being used on high officials who could stop Israel and help prevent the Palestinian natives from continuing to be killed off and chased out of their own country. I feel it has to be mind control, because anyone, who looks at the history and both sides would clearly see that it is Israel who is the intrusive invader, and Israel who is anti-Arab, and Israel who wants to wipe out Palestine and the Palestinian people, and Israel who has been far more terroristic. Israel has projected all their evil stuff onto Hamas and has been convincing the world that Hamas – the resisting Palestinian people are the ones who are the bad guys…and it is just not true, no matter what wrongs a few Hamas individuals may have done in their fight for freedom on their own land...etc. In a fair look at the factual bigger picture, of violent terroristic types of acts, it is VERY easy to see that Israel has done FAR worse than Hamas from the very start of this situation...and that it is illegal for Israel to even be there in Palestine.

I started a new blog for the Palestinian people


Thursday, November 2, 2023

Videos on the Israel vs. Hamas Situation

Its been hard to get past Israeli news to the bigger picture and the real truths, but have been getting there and I have been finding out that many people other people also stand behind the Palestinian People, even though they do not agree with the violence, because they are the victims of a horrid crimes. This is what I have found thus far... 

 Play List on the Palestinian Plight 

The Blame Game

On the Israel side the attacks appear to be more than just revenge. It appears that they provoke the Hamas attacks, and even fabricate things, in order to justify their own terroristic attacks against the Palestinian people. Then they kill off yet another mass of Palestinians and hope to scare the rest into leaving. Their goal, from the start, was to get rid of the Palestinian people, especially the Native Arab Palestinians who were the vast majority from the start of this situation. And... 

Israel blames Hamas for their own killings of masses of Palestinian citizens, claiming that they "use their own citizens as shields." The truth is that, Hamas IS the citizens, and they have no formal army and no military base, because they are too small and have not had the help that Israel has had. All they have is tunnels they dug out beneath Gaza - beneath their own homes and businesses. And Gaza is so heavily polluted that there no other place for them to be. It appears that the citizens gather around them, because they are the citizens who are fighting for freedom in the only ways they can.

 More coming soon...

The Chain of Terror

It is a shame that the leaders of the Jewish immigrants did not treat the Palestinian people with the type of kindness and consideration that would have enabled the Palestinians and the Jewish immigrants to continue to all peacefully live together in Palestine. I have strived to understand the Jewish/Israel side. And it appears to me that, at least some of the Jewish people may have been too severely wounded by the holocaust, and did not heal from it, and have been passing on the abuse. This is sad for them and even sadder for their victims - the Palestinian people.

The Projection of Evil
copyright Sharon Rose Poet 11-2-2023

They were invaded and crushed
As the unhealed Jewish rushed
In to steal their land and homes.
But none of them stood alone.
Resistance spread far and wide.
But, evil blamed its victim's side.
Now thousands die in the storm.
This is wrong. It’s not the norm.
But it's declared to all of humanity,
"Animals must be killed and not be free."
And so it’s happened one more time -
The horrid holocaust - the crime.
God help what's left of Palestine.

The Israel vs. Palestinian Battle on YouTube

On YouTube I have run into a lot of kind people who are sharing their hearts and their grief over what has been and still is happening to the Palestinian people. This has actually helped me to regain a bit of my faith in humanity. But I have also run into many who have been literally pushing people into joining the hate against the Palestinian side of this battle, and who have been trying to make me think I am wrong in my view of the situation...etc. 

One example of this is when one of them asked, "SharonPoet aren’t you thinking? What if your nation attack by Hamas? Will you feel the same to what you are saying? Don’t be fooled by devil words"

And my response was, "My nation was attacked, by what was believed to be a terrorist, on September 11, 2001. And even then, I found the heart to not join in on the hate campaigns and to not leap to judgements against whomever other people were blaming...etc. In the Palestinian/Israel situation there are two sides to the story and a bigger picture that encompasses far more than what has been told by the media, and this is what I look at.
   And I assure you that I am not being "fooled by the devil words," and I have heard them, just not on the same side you think they are on. I strive to listen to my heart - my intuition and instincts above all else. I felt the truth, before I heard it, and this is why I recognized it. And if Hamas came and attacked my home, the first thing I would ask is, why - What happened to instigate or provoke such horrific violence....was it something I did or is there anything I could have done to prevent it. And I'd dig until I found the truth, rather than blindly believing what the media has been told. If only all the citizens of Israel and the rest of the world would do this."


Other Israel puppets have tried to make people think I am a "terrorist" or a "robot, “through making false statements under my comments. It’s sad that those who express their condolences to the Palestinians are being harassed and accused of doing wrong or being antiemetic...etc.


My YouTube Stroll
copyright Sharon Rose Poet 11-2-2023

I found many hearts and many tears
Where compassion soothed away fears.
But others pushed for us to hate
And I just can't even relate.
Their comments were too rude -
The usual negative attitude,
That aimed to defame mine.
How dare I feel for Palestine?

Relating to the Plight of Palestinian People

I have been asking myself why I feel so connected to the Palestinian plight, aside from the normal empathy for people that are suffering, and my disdain for wars. And I've realized that it’s because their plight touches my own wells of pain.
   I know what it’s like to be targeted by evil forces who convince people that I am the one who is "evil" and "insane" and "dangerous." Due to this targeting, I know what its like to have my homes invaded. I know what its like to have my home taken from me against my will. I know what its like to watch my next home go up in flames. I know what its like to have my next neighborhood wiped out and neighbors killed. I know what its like to be held trapped in a public prison and not allowed to succeed with my own business.
   I know what its like to be targeted by a force that is far too powerful for me to do anything but strive to survive the poverty and hell they shoved me into and held me trapped in after invading and destroying my life - the way I'd lived it. I know what its like to be totally at the mercy of those who target me and to feel desperate for freedom that seems to have no chance of ever returning to my life. I know what its like to suffer through decades of painful attacks against me and people whom I love.
   My situation is very different from that of the Palestinian people. Theirs is much worse in many ways, and far bigger, and far more overt. But the general scenarios are the same, and this is because the same type of evil is behind it all in both of our situations. In my situation it has been mostly covert targeting and the violent attacks have been mostly with microwave and laser weapons.

A People Deemed Worthless

I have been mostly flying by the seat of my instincts with this situation. But I am now finding some good reports and have been being validated over and over again, to the point of being shocked that this really has been and still is happening. Below are three videos. More will be coming soon.

Their Invaders Call Them "Animals"

In the bigger picture... from the start of this whole Arab/Palestinian situation, the Palestinian people have been being treated like worthless "animals." This started only about one century ago and is still happening today.
   In the beginning Christian and Zionist Jewish writers, like Theodore Herz, described Palestine as "a land without a people." One also said something like, "Palestine is a land without a people and the Jewish are a people without a land." This was their way of saying that the Palestinian people were nothing but worthless "animals," and that Palestine and its people should be wiped out and replaced with the Jewish people and called Israel. Then they attacked the Palestinian people, shoved most of them out of their own country, stole their homes businesses, and enslaved the survivors who resisted the invasion.
   Today, these resisters are still fight for their freedom. They have formed groups whom they call "the Resistance." One of these groups is well known as, Hamas. The Israel/Jewish side calls them "terrorists" but they are mostly, if not completely, just angry and desperate Palestinians who are fighting for their freedom and the return of their homes and lands. They are a small informal militant group, who are fighting for freedom and the return of what was stolen from them. No matter how badly some individuals in the "Resistance" may have behaved, in isolated incidents, they deserve our compassion and understanding.

Under extremely abusive oppression, any human being can become capable of extreme violence. And the way to stop the violence is to stop the oppression and the abuse and undo the wrongs that were done to them, if possible.

But Israel keeps vamping up their own terror, instead of stopping. Every time the Resistance strikes back, Israel seeks revenge and strikes with far more terroristic force than the Resistance delivered. For example; Hamas is provoked and attacks and kills a couple people on a street. Then Israel starts dropping bombs on Gaza and kills hundreds Palestinian citizens and dozens of their homes and businesses and schools and hospitals...etc. There has been round after round after round of this happening for decades now.

The fact that the small groups of Palestinian resistance survivors still refuse to give up or leave, after decades of being held captive in an "open air prison" and repeatedly attacked and degraded by the most powerful forces in the world, is quite remarkable. This may actually be the longest and bravest and most resilient stand for freedom that has ever happened in Humanity. Israel has most of the world convinced that they are nothing but worthless terrorists that must all be killed, and has literally said this in October 2023. But when the world looks at the bigger picture and sees the truth, the Palestinian Resistance (Hamas) may become heroes, especially to military minded and freedom fighter types of people.
    And the rest of us should understand that most human beings are capable of violence in these types of situations. People who are treated extremely badly naturally end up feeling hurt and angry and can react in negative ways, including violent ways. And this is exactly what has been happening in this situation, especially in the organized groups of Palestinian people who are resisting the cruel Jewish invasion that has had no consideration for them and has been far more violent to them. If only the Jewish (or Zionist Jewish) leaders would look in the mirror, at their own behaviors and how they created this volatile situation, with their own "terroristic" and heartless and thieving and controlling behaviors.

The Palestinian, or Arab, people are just as valuable as all other human beings. They deserve to be treated with kindness and consideration. They deserve the same human rights that everyone else has. They deserve to be free and safe in their own homes and country.

And they cannot be blamed for fighting for freedom under the inhumane and horrific conditions they have been and still are faced with. None of these things should have ever been done to them. Those who deserve the blame are the invaders, and all who helped them to attack and get rid of the Palestinian people. The behaviors of Israel's leaders, has been so barbaric and criminal that it is difficult to believe it started so recently and is still happening today. It’s like something out of medieval history books.

Al-Nakba: The Palestinian catastrophe - Episode 1 | Featured Documentary

https://youtu.be/H7FML0wzJ6A?si=G3854uK3M6UZmBly Al-Nakba: 

The Palestinian catastrophe - Episode 2 | Featured Documentary https://youtu.be/yI2D5Fsd9lg?si=m3e2iyH6Qn36RToN

Al Jazeera World Documentary  https://youtu.be/QUCeQt8zg5o?si=Qdkgogw5foLG7QJw

Wednesday, November 1, 2023

A Suggestion for the Israel vs. Palestine Conflict

I was asked what I thought the solution would be. So I wrote this...


A Suggestion for the Israel vs. Palestine Conflict

To be fair we must look at BOTH sides of the bigger picture and the true history, instead of what just one side says. The current violence, and the ways its been reported, has distracted people from realizing the core problem - the land dispute, which has always needed to be permanently resolved, in ways that are fair to BOTH sides, in order to prevent the violence. This is just common sense and these suggestions are just well known human rights. Why they were not allowed deserves serious consideration and investigation.


PART ONE - THE LAND DISPUTE

To be fair and considerate and humane, the following things must happen...

1. The Gaza strip and West Bank, and AT LEAST the land between these two bodies, should be immediately returned to the Palestinian people and immediately declared the independent state of Palestine. These lands, and their airspace, must be controlled by the Palestinian people, so they can uphold the law on their own lands and prevent further illegal encroachment...etc.

2. Out of fairness and consideration to the families of the existing invaders and their unaware "settlers," they should be given at least about three months to move back out of these lands, before trespassing laws are enforced.

3. The Palestinian people must also have free and safe passages leading to neighboring countries and out into the open sea.

4. The Palestinian people must be allowed to conduct their own businesses and rebuild their own economy without interference.

5. In the historical facts, it is VERY clear that the Arab Palestinians are the people who were the vast majority in Palestine for many hundreds of years, and that the vast majority of the Jewish people are the immigrants who recently invaded Palestine and forcefully stole the Arab country and stole Arab homes and stole Arab businesses from the Arab Palestinian people. Due to this happening so recently, it truly would be fair for ALL the Israel lands to be returned to the Palestinian people and declared their independent state of Palestine. If this happened it would be nice if the Palestinians found the heart to let some of the Jewish immigrants stay there, at least the ones who are peaceful and not prejudice against the Arab people.

If the leaders of the Jewish Immigrants cannot immediately find the heart to do the above things, they should be forced to. If the UN cannot enforce this, then at least parts of the rest of the world should unite and demand it through setting dire consequences if it is not done within three months. These consequences should NOT be violent, but should make things so difficult for them that they do right by the Palestinian people, for their own sakes. Is there any high authority or collective authority that can over-see this? I do not know enough about politics or laws or those types of manipulations to venture into details. Someone else will have to do that part. But it is clear to me that, anyone who has the heart to be kind and fair and considerate - decent human beings, would surely agree that the Palestinian people should have at least most of their land and homes returned to them and be allowed to be an independent nation that has a right to protect what is left of their people.


PART TWO - SETTLING INTO PEACE

1. There must be an immediate and permanent cease fire on BOTH sides.

2. Hamas must return all the hostages, that have not been killed by Israel's careless bombing. And Israel must return all the Palestinian people that they have held captive.

3. Part one must quickly and fully happen so that the Palestinian people, including Hamas, do not feel like they have to continue fighting for their freedom or their lands or their lives or their human rights.

4. Israel must stop provoking Hamas attacks, or using Hamas attacks, as an excuse to do their own and murder large masses of Palestinian people and terrorize the rest into leaving the country. Too much of this has already been done and it just has to stop. BOTH sides must make a pact to not use any future violent incidents, as excuses to attack back. The vengeance and violence must stop.

5. BOTH sides must work on healing their hearts at least until they can be kind enough and considerate enough and compassionate enough to let go of the hate and refrain from seeking vengeance. Both sides should make a pact to not pass the hate and vengeful attitudes down to their children. Both sides should do all they can, to promote a safe and peaceful and comfortable environment for themselves and each other. 

Finishing notes; I feel that, if the heart and mind of humanity were free the recent violent wars would probably not be happening, even if the leaders of the Jewish immigrants are still naturally as selfish and inconsiderate and unkind as they have been from the start of their invasion of Palestine, because the hearts of enough other nations would have rallied around the Palestinian people, instead of around Israel - the aggressive intruder.
 
We must look at the global problem of mass distribution of brain numbing and feeling blocking pharmaceuticals, which have been blocking the heart of humanity - the ability to feel Love and compassion and intuition, and makes people like numb sheep who just blindly follow... whatever. And we also must look at how various frequencies of radio waves can effect people's minds. I feel that these things are part of this and many other problems since around the 1950s.

EVERY HUMAN BEING IN HUMANITY SHOULD MAKE A PACT TO BEHAVE IN WAYS THAT ARE KIND AND CONSIDERATE TO FELLOW HUMAN BEINGS, ESPECIALLY TO THOSE WHO CAN NOT BE FAIRLY BLAMED, IN THIS SITUATION AND OTHERS. No matter what terminology some of us have used; the problem is not all of "the Catholics" or all of "the British" or all of "the Jewish" or all of "America" or all of "Israel"...etc. It is just the decisions of a few of the people in these places that have caused the problems in this situation as well as others. And there are probably times when some of them made those decisions before being aware of all the honest details and/or while being negatively influenced by other people. Some of them, especially in the beginning of this mess, clearly just lacked the heart to see the value in the Arab people. This would be more sad for them, if such horrific destruction had not come from their handicapped decisions.

I understand that the Jewish people want to own their own country. I hope they get it, but it should not be through theft and the destruction of its existing people, like was done in Palestine. Perhaps another country would give them some land? Perhaps the British would be willing to help them again, but do it fairly this time? No matter where they go, they should not be allowed to steal land and homes and try get rid of its existing people. This lesson must be learned now. And the learning should start with them not getting away with what they have done to the Arab Palestine.

Those who think the Arabs are worthless "animals," really should find their hearts and open their minds. In the lowest forms of humanity are those who feel such hate and prejudice, and even they are not worthless - they are just people who need to find and heal their hearts.

The laws that apply to people's homes should also apply to countries - people must not have the right to just move in and take control and either kick the owners out or kill them. Its just common human decency. By now, humanity should have learned this lesson through past mistakes with indigenous people, at least enough to not be repeating them. Seriously. I'm shocked that what Happened to the Palestine part of the Arab territories was even allowed within the past century. We can't fix all past mistakes, but we can learn from them and stop repeating them. We ALL must use our hearts and be kind and considerate to other people, even when they are different from us. Look with your Hearts and you will see. Although I've probably made some typing mistakes, and have not described it all perfectly, and have not fully spelled out every possible little detail, you can surely understand the gist of what I'm saying here. Its up to other people to take it further and fill in the gaps.
 
I have actually not chosen sides in the Israel vs Palestine battle, although it may look to some like I have. I am actually on the side of what is right and fair and kind and considerate and peaceful. And I hope the rest of the world joins this side very quickly...and agrees that hate and prejudice and inhumane acts and dishonesty and justifications for evil intentions...etc., are what must be "condemned" throughout the world. Enough is enough.

Initially, it is a shame that the leaders of the Jewish immigrants did not treat the Palestinian people with the type of kindness and consideration that would have enabled the Palestinians and the Jewish immigrants to all peacefully live there together in an independent state of Palestine.

I am an America citizen (since birth) who is part Native American and part French and English. I have no affiliation with the Palestinian people or the Jewish/Israel people. I do not even know any of them. I am a real person. My Name is Sharon Rose Poet. I matter too, and so does my opinion. Please consider it.

Monday, October 30, 2023

A Fair Depiction of Hamas

Yesterday I was wondering if I was wrong about Hamas. So I started looking up interviews with them. I found very few. And the ones I found were merely reporters angrily accusing and not even caring to listen to Hamas's side of the story. It was impossible to see their side through the videos I found, especially since most of the comments were puppets following the hate filled "Condemn Hamas" orders. But, Last night I had a dream about Hamas and the current situation. (I'm still processing it.)

But over-all, it appears that, for decades now, Hamas has been severely misunderstood, due to people not objectively listening to their side, and due to a lack of understanding of their culture, and due to language barriers, and due to Israel fabricating things so they can blame Hamas for what Israel itself has done and so they can make the world hate Hamas. Over-all, it appears that Hamas truly is just a small Palestinian militant group that is fighting for freedom - fighting the occupation of their lands and the ongoing destruction of their own people. Its not about religion at all.
   It is VERY unjust that the world has been being pushed to "condemn Hamas," no matter what wrongs some individual members may have done, especially since Israel has done far more civilian killings...etc. People have not been looking at the bigger picture, or at the Palestinian plight, and we ALL should do so now.
   As for the semantics of isolated recent incidents that people have been programmed to keep their focus on, instead of looking at the bigger picture and what has been happening to the Palestinian people for decades; I do not think there is a military group in the whole world that has not had members who stepped over the lines and did wrong things. Most have just been able to hide it better than the closely watched and scrutinized Hamas. Military people, everywhere, are mostly rough and tough men who have been trained to put compassion aside and attack and kill the enemy and do every possible thing they can to win. And Hamas is no different from them. Israel is their invading enemy, throughout all of Palestine, for many decades now.
   Some of the Hamas war tactics may be different from that of more formal and more educated militaries, but this does not make them "terrorists" who kill just for the sake of killing. The fabrications and unfair judgments should be stopped. Hamas reminds me of the Native American resistance. Everyone blamed only them too, but who could now and still claim to have a heart? Native Americans were just desperate people who were fighting for their lives and their freedom and their right to live on their own land, and they were fighting in the only ways that they knew how to. Hamas is no different. Did humanity learn nothing from the horrid injustices that were done to the Native people of the USA and Canada and other places?

As I woke this morning my intuition remembered a song I wrote in the late 1980s, which fits the Hamas/Palestinian Resistance people's situation...

Misunderstood
copyright 1980s Sharon Rose Poet

Misunderstood is my middle name
I played and I lost YOUR game.
Now what am I supposed to do?
I'm sick of defending myself to you.

It is very possible that Israel has been, and still is, justifying murdering masses of Palestinian children, every time Hamas fights back or individual members step out of line. And this may be for the sake of population control in Gaza. How horribly sad it is that so much destruction has been done and so little has been done to stop it and save what is left of the Palestinian people, including Hamas - the braves who fight for the humane rights of their own people. People call Hamas "evil," but it looks to me like it is the Israel side that is too filled with, or controlled by, real pure evil. I hope they find their hearts.

We all have a right to our opinions. But we all have an obligation to be objective, and face the truths, and do what is right and just and fair to our fellow human beings.

The Palestinian people, including the Hamas part of them, are our fellow human beings. They have been suffering horribly, for many decades now. They deserve our compassion. They should be set free and helped and comforted, instead of being judged and condemned.

Just because some cultures are different from ours it does not
mean they are wrong or bad or should have no human rights.

PS. After writing this I found these videos about Hamas...

What Hamas is and what it stands for | Explainer
https://youtu.be/1Sd3JJ1MHOs?si=2dl02Qskd5g31PFa

My Stand for the Palestinian People

Contrary to accusations, I do not stand up for the Palestinian people due to being "antisemitic" or "Palestinian" or because I "condone terrorism", or because I "support Hamas" or any other accusation that has been being directed at me and others, in order to discredit those of us who sense and tell the truth. I am none of these things. I actually do not even know anyone who is Palestinian. I do not know Hamas. I am the opposite of "antisemitic." And I am strongly against all types of violence and hate. I am an American (a mix of Native English and French).
   In the beginning of my realizations; I sensed something horribly wrong, due to the dream I'd had a few months ago. When I noticed part of this dream happening I investigated and intuitively felt that things were the opposite of what was being portrayed in the initial reports I watched on the Israel war. So I looked deeper, and as I read historical reports and watched other news reports, I was validated, over and over and over again.
   My heart has ached terribly, because I recognized that pure evil was as involved in the Israel side of this war as it has been in the covert targeting situation I experience. Since these realizations I have been standing up for what is right in the Palestinian situation, partly because too many have been doing the opposite and I just cannot be silent - I cannot condone it.

I feel for the innocent Israeli victims too, but its the Palestinians who have been hurt the most, by far. And they have not had enough people standing up for them and helping them, due to the evil manipulations that have been happening around their demise. The truth is that the Palestinians are the victims who have been being invaded and destroyed, through the past few decades as well as now, even though Israel claims that they are. And this evil 'blame the victims' scenario just has to stop in this situation as well as mine and others.
   I know there are probably all sorts of political aspects, or other details, in and around Israel's invasive war situation, that I am not aware of. But no matter what they are, the humanitarian considerations and the truth should have precedence over them. They should have through the past and they should now. I am also standing up for all other victims of manipulative and violent and harmful controlling forces. I am one of these victims myself, and this enables me to empathize very easily with the Palestinian plight. And I can't help but wonder if the Jewish people, and others, who support them are mind control victims who are not acting of their own free will. Surely some are. Most people could not be so cruel of their own free will, unless their own hearts had been completely blocked by something they experienced and have not healed from.

I choose no side in the war.
I choose peace for all and freedom and
independence for the Palestinian people.


P.S. It is very possible that there are mind control victims on both sides of the Israel war against the Palestinians, and in many witnesses...and that this is what has made it so inhumane.

How Israel's War Could Affect Our 2024 Elections?

I believe that officials here in America have been being brainwashed into supporting Israel’s war.* This appears to have exacerbated this situation here in America as well as in Palestine. Hopefully the current course will change into a positive direction.
   One outcome of this is that it could effect the 2024 elections. One of the effects of officials (like RFK Jr. and President Biden), publicly supporting Israel's invasive war, and people not realizing that they were brainwashed into it; these officials may lose votes, especially RFK Jr. who had been declaring that he was against the wars. It appears that, if things remain the way they are; RFK Jr. will be blamed for going against his word and choosing war over peace... and President Biden will be blamed for the discord here in America as well as for aiding the brutal massacre of the Palestinian people in Gaza. The result of this, if it happens, would probably be Donald trump becoming our next president. I feel certain that RFK Jr.'s support of Israel's war was due to mind control being performed on him. And I feel certain that the White house is not totally free of the pharmaceutical and radio wave mind control either. Please think about this and help spread the word.

* This post explains why I believe this; https://sharonrosepoet.blogspot.com/2023/10/dream-of-current-events.html

Old Painful Issues Raised by Hate and Greed

(This is a revised version of what I'd posted yesterday) This is a take-off from my previous post, because I was just proven partially ...