There are now many tributes to Sinead, but few share the things that have been behind the scenes. Sinead bravely stood for honesty and truth and we can best honor her by standing up for her with the truth. Below is part of the truth I see…
It is not fair to blame her suffering on only her childhood or "mental illness." Sinead O'Connor's TRUE story gives humanity an opportunity to look into its own dark closets - the places where people are neglected and hurt instead of being loved and healed, because this is what happened to Sinead, in her adult life as well as in her childhood. I feel that Sinead was being covertly targeted as well as being overtly targeted.
The truth is that Sinead O'Connor's suffering was caused by the people who intentionally hurt and neglected her, and by a severe lack of support in the process of healing from those painful childhood (and adult) experiences, and by a severe lack of support in the process of regaining confidence in her own sanity after she had been repeatedly stigmatized with the "mental illness" label.
This is not about blaming people who could not give her the levels of love and support she needed. Sometimes people just literally don't know how to give what is needed, because they never learned how to or because their own hearts are too wounded or blocked to be capable of it. But no matter what the reasons were, the results are the same for Sinead and the uncountable thousands of other wounded people who just need real Love, and support with the natural healing process, and freedom from covert targeting, in order to become peaceful and content.
Sinead was initially a wounded child who needed a lot of love and support with her own natural healing process. And she got far too much of the opposite in her adult life and this took its tole.
The media and music industry suddenly thrust her up on a pedestal, for their own monetary gain, and then they cruelly tore her down directly after she used her fame, in order to help humanity realize the evil abuse that has been happening in Catholic organizations.
She had wanted to be a protest singer, who sang her own songs... not a fake pop or a rock star. Yes, it was her choice to go with the record company, but it was not her choice to be cruelly torn down by them and the media...etc.
Sinead then was repeatedly crushed by the "mental health" institutions that labeled/stigmatized her and prescribed harmful pharmaceuticals, instead of helping her to heal... and by the media that continued to manipulate people against her... and by the masses of "fans" who swung against her instead of being kind and considerate... and by the many puppets who followed orders to harass her or to befriend her just to abandon her during times of need... and by the many people who neglected her and could not love and support her the way she needed to be loved and supported...etc.
She often pretended that the lashings and cruel judgments were not hurting her, because they cut her too deep - because they were literally ripping her to shreds on the inside and she couldn't bear the pain. Her periods of belligerent anger were masks for her unbearable pain. But she was more than that tough, defiant, swearing wall she'd erect around her sensitive heart. And she was more than the songs they wanted her to sing for them. She was a human being with common human needs.
Sinead had set out to be a protest singer whose songs could not only help her to heal, but also help bring awareness to child abuse. But the evil parts of our world aimed to rear her off of that path and wanted her, and everyone else, to think that she was "crazy" so that her insights and wisdom would not be heard or believed. And they had great success with this, unfortunately.
No matter how Sinead actually physically died; the truth is that her life was slowly snuffed out by the heartlessness that exists in humanity's dark closets. Her son's death was just the last big blow in a very long chain of painful blows, which she was being struck with throughout her adult life.
The truth is that Sinead was too blatantly real and honest and caring for the most shallow and evil parts of humanity. And the things they, and their puppets, did to her had deeply hurt her.
Sinead felt so painfully unloved in this world, because she WAS too painfully unloved in this world. Many fans loved the songs she sang, and her close friends and family members probably did love her as much as they were capable of or as much as they could... But how many people, who could understand what she was going through, and give her the levels of comfort she needed, were consistently right there by her side when she needed them the most? (The family members of long term heavily targeted individuals tend to get drugged and brainwashed into neglecting and abandoning the primary target during times of desperate need... And the effects of this can be devastating. I know, because its happened to me too.)
We should not feel guilty, unless we intentionally did things to hurt Sinead. But those of us who did not take part in hurting her should look at what we didn't do. She had needed the heart of humanity to rally around her and this did not happen nearly as much as it should have. And we need to look at why this happened to such a (supposedly beloved) public figure in our crowded world. There truly is an evil in humanity, that cruelly (and often covertly) targets wise and intuitive and caring and independent people who want to help humanity. I feel certain that Sinead was a victim of this, just as I and many other people have been.
Humanity must face its own faults and wrong doings, in order to do better in the future. And Sinead's real life story is one of its many opportunities to do this.
I'm glad her suffering is over. I hope she is now wrapped in the Love and Light she'd yearned for throughout all of her life here. That Love should have been here for her in humanity. I hope humanity find's it's heart.
I was never a fan of Sinead's music career. The first time I heard of her was around 2017 when I (by chance) watched videos where she was literally crying out for help. At that time I reached out to her, because I felt that she was being targeted in ways that she did not realize...etc. As I wish there was more I could have done to help her, I am feeling there was and that I failed her too. I need to look into my part in this as well. Should I have kept sending her consoling messages after she appeared to have recovered from this difficult round? Should I have sent her my Embracing Feelings and Healing book? I am being targeted too, so it was a difficult time for me as well, but there surely was more I could have done to console her and help her to regain trust in her own sanity and help her to heal her broken heart.
Below are two realistic tributes to Sinead. The first video is a tribute showing when she got booed by a large controlled/manipulated crowd of people/puppets, shortly after exposing the evil in Catholic organizations on TV. They had told Kris to go get her off the stage, but he walked out there and said in her ear, "Don't let the bastards get you down." And then she appears to have angrily blasted the crowd and then held her chin up, which was her type of defiant reaction. She probably even pretended that it did not hurt her, but it surely cut her to the core. You can't thrust a person into the lime light and then suddenly turn it off, without deeply hurting them, and I think this was VERY well known by those who were in charge.
In the second video below Sinead shares her controversial view of God and Religion. Her view makes perfect sense to me. But even if we do not agree with it, we should not hate her or boo her or target her in any way. And we ALL need to look at what makes us do these sorts of heartless things. Sinead is entitled to her own beliefs and opinions just as much as all of the rest of us are. The Catholic church appears to be at the root of the targeting of Sinead and me and many others. Before the worse of the targeting of me started, I'd had a precognitive dream about a group of nuns invading my life.
The third video below is a tribute to Sinead, which shares an opinion about how Sinead was failed by our "mental health" industry, which I feel is VERY accurate and that even far worse than that happened to her in the "mental health" organizations. It appears that some Targeted Individuals are microwaved in ways that effect emotions, and then they are labeled as "mentally ill" and drugged/silenced and manipulated..., OR our lives are covertly sabotaged and we are harassed so brutally that all our energy goes into fighting to survive it, instead of into sharing our wisdom and hearts with humanity. The latter one happened to me. But it appears that BOTH of these situations happened to Sinead. She went through at least one round of trying to recover from the negative effects of the "mental illness" label and the pharmaceuticals that were pushed upon her in those institutions. In the end, she didn't heal and remained that wounded child who kept groping for a Love that was not here for her and couldn't be because of the evil targeting.
Below these three videos, I share a few interviews where Sinead tells parts of her own story...
Sinéad O'Connor, Kris Kristofferson and Freedom
https://youtu.be/4uptPnHZs3Q?si=TS9QCt-POWbtcAKt
Sinead's View of Religion - Channel Four News 2013
https://youtu.be/SB9F6YoyxJA?si=9cWY69KuQH4bcxI9&t=187
Insights into what probably went wrong
https://youtu.be/ekQhTSNg0aA?si=piB_0PN7mRYq7T1n
Sinead O'Connor interview on Absolute Radio 2012
https://youtu.be/JKMm3qJuX8E?si=uOlR04F0EwU6Tidv
Sinead O'Connor on The Graham Norton Show 2012 *
https://youtu.be/mBMyQvSqDag?si=sHFMcFK3Zh-rmRuQ
Interview where Sinead shares her experience with a false "mental illness" diagnosis 2014
https://youtu.be/NQnKxucghAk?si=s_DtgfiadbYWUWZx
* Below is the real picture on Sinead's CD - "How about I be me (and you be you)," which was introduced, in an interview above, as well as on youtube, with a different jacket...and this appears to be part of the ongoing covert harassment. See how adorable the real picture is? Its very appropriately a distressed child holding her hand up as if to say, "Stop! Leave me alone!" I can see why they wanted to cover up this picture - it's very heart touching and probably meant a lot to her. Parts of this CD literally are her defiant and angry and wounded inner child giving them hell, especially in the end of the CD. (This picture is from her CD cover on Amazon.)
Ironically this CD title is very similar to a poem I wrote in the mid to late 1990s. Mine said, "How about you be you and I be me and heart the only one to see...."
P.S. In many ways Sinead and I were complete opposites, but in some ways she felt like a soul sister to me. We both aimed to heal from a difficult childhood and help stop child abuse in humanity. We both were empathic and intuitive and compassionate poets and songwriters who wanted to publicly share our wisdom and insights in ways that would help humanity. And it appears that we were both targeted by evil forces because of this. But we were very different too...
I did a lot of inner child healing work in the 1980s and 1990s and this made a huge positive difference in my life. I was very lucky to have found more than one good and wise counselor, who was aware of the natural healing process and had helped me instead of hurting me with the labels and pharmaceuticals. So I was not stigmatized with the "mental illness" label or suppressed with the brain numbing and heart blocking pharmaceuticals, like Sinead and many other people have been. Consequently, my aim to help humanity has been about encouraging healing, instead of being suppressed with the pharmaceuticals...etc. In this way Sinead and I were on opposite paths.
It is sad that Sinead was not as lucky as I was - that she was suppressed by the "mental health" system and kept stuck in such a negative place inside herself, through so much of her life. If Sinead and I had ever tried to be close friends, our personalities would have clashed, because I would not have tolerated (or wanted to be subjected to) her constant belligerent swearing. But I wish I'd done more to help her regain trust in her own sanity and heal her broken heart and climb out of that hell.
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