Respect vs. Fear

There is a HUGE difference between
instilling fear and gaining respect.

Instilling fear promotes negative things like, discomfort, distrust, resentment, unhappiness and hate. Gaining genuine respect promotes positive things like comfort, trust and appreciation and contentment and care. 

Resolution for the LGBT Controversy

 I agree that boundaries must be set to protect our children from being exposed to adult sexuality issues. But I feel that it must be done with compassion for the people who are so troubled that they can not accept or honor their own natural gender...etc. We should all think about what reduced them to this? Was it sexual abuse? Was it through being exposed to it at a too impressionable age? Was it through pharmaceutical and radio wave mind control...etc.?
   No matter what the core problem was, it is not fair to these people, when we misjudge or degrade them for having such issues. And it is not fair to the rest of the world (especially to children) for us to act like gender change is a normal thing anyone should be able to choose, or like its a cool thing to do...etc. I feel really sad for people who can not accept or honor their own natural gender. And I hope they focus on healing from whatever brought them to such an unhealthy place within themselves. 

THERE SHOULD BE FAR MORE FOCUS
ON HEALING FROM GENDER ISSUES.

Resolution for America's Street Drug Problem

 I think we all agree that criminals and drug dealers should not be let across our boarders, but those of us who care about financially poor people feel that it should not happen at the expense of the good, harmless people who just need more care or more safety or a better way of life or a fair paying job...etc.

As I see such an extreme focus on stopping street drugs from being brought into America, I wonder why there is not more focus on looking at why so many people want to buy and use the drugs. Is this not the core problem? The dealers want to sell them here because there is such a huge market for them. I think we can best solve this problem through realizing why so many people turn to drugs. It is probably most often to dull extreme levels of emotional pain that have been inflicted through abuse or at least a hurtful lack of loving care in our families and other environments... and then due to not having any (or enough) compassionate support to complete the natural feeling and healing process. 

And then there is the feeling numbing pharmaceuticals that block people's hearts from having even just normal levels of love/care for others. All that harms or blocks the HEART of humanity, must be stopped.

FAR MORE GENUINE HEART/LOVE IS NEEDED, IN ORDER TO STOP PEOPLE (ESPECIALLY CHILDREN) FROM BEING SO HURT. AND FAR MORE COMPASSIONATE SUPPORT OF THE NATURAL FEELING AND HEALING PROCESS MUST TAKE PLACE, IN ORDER FOR PEOPLE TO STOP TURNING TO VARIOUS TYPES OF SUBSTANCE ABUSE. 

And the brainwashing/mind control, which may also be part of the problem in Targeted people or communities, should be stopped so that those people have the freedom to make better choices.

For PEACE and FREEDOM...

https://youtu.be/bw_U821YTCc?si=s578Ca9m50cozj

I've been praying, harder than ever, for real freedom and peace to be restored here in America as well as around the globe...

THE TIME FOR REAL FREEDOM AND PEACE AND HEALING IS LONG OVERDUE AND THINGS JUST CAN'T KEEP HEADING IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION! PLEASE HELP PEACE AND REAL FREEDOM AND LOVE/HEART WIN, BECAUSE IT HAS TO. IT JUST HAS TO.

Thefts and Malfunctions happening in Web Hosting Site?

As I tried to pay, in advance, for another year of website hosting and domain payments, I ran into many problems in the Godaddy website. I am not sure if it is Godaddy doing this to me, or if the people who target me, have been infiltrating their website, in order to make changes to pages in my account, but its one or the other or both. The list below explains what is happening...

When I click on the "renewals" page; it lists only five of my websites and the dates they are due to renew this year. (last year these dates changed, forcing to pay twice.) Other domains are not being shown on this page, and there is no way to view them. When I did a print out of this page my www.poeticpublications.com website was not on the print out, although it was still on the web page. Did they remove it from the wrong page in the website, this time? It appears so; Godaddy is already offering it for sale, even though I paid for it up to June of 2025.

This is how they stole my www.heartbud.com website; they took it off the listing so that I did not include it in the renewals of every site listed. I actually caught this and paid for it, but then they applied that payment to something else and stole it anyway. (It is now being offered for at least $2,000!!!) The same tactic was done with the hosting bill; it was suddenly not listed on the "renewals" page, like it always had been - making it easy for me to forget it. But I caught it last year and paid for it, FOR A FULL YEAR AS ALWAYS, but it appears that they altered that payment and made it for only three months, and I did not catch the change in time. :(  (because the website has often malfunctioned when I tried to print out receipts of payments, I started taking pictures of the pages last year.)
   And I never got the expiration notices of my hosting account, because the email associated with my Godaddy account recently stopped forwarding my emails to my other email account, which I check more often. So they have been interfering with both my email account and the pages in my Godaddy account, in order to steal my domains and take down my websites. And as if this is not enough....

When I now try to pay for another year of my remaining domains, that are currently listed on my renewal page; the proper billing info has been removed from the checkout page, which prevents me from paying for my domains. They still have my current billing info; it can be viewed through another page, but that page malfunctions; it vanishes when the mouse is not clicked on it, preventing me from even accessing it. I have repeatedly tried this process from different computers and it is the same every time. They are preventing me from paying for my remaining domains, which are all due to expire this year.

This is all very devastating, because my heartbud.com website, as well as my poeticpublications.com website are the ones I had used in many publications and emails, in order to advertise my work. Its all just too wrong!!! Its actually criminal, but I do not know if there are any laws that will allow me to press charges. A lawsuit is probably the only way to deal with this sort of thing. But there should be laws against it, because it is blatant covert theft and I now have enough physical proof of it through dated videos and pictures.

Letter to President Trump...

 Dear President Trump,

As I see your rush to "make America safer..." my heart wants to send you the following VIP questions about some of the most grotesque crimes that have been being committed against American citizens...

What are you doing to stop space and ground based microwave and laser weapons systems from being used (in conjunction with satellite surveillance systems) to harm or torture American citizens, like myself?

   What are you doing to break down the "matter of national security" wall, which hides these crimes from the public...leaving us victims to be disbelieved and/or viewed as "mentally ill," as the targeting continues to destroy our lives? (Those of us who are genuine long term victims are not "dangerous" or "insane" - we are the opposite - we are very kind people who have deep hearts - we are good people who are being targeted by what appears to be an evil occult.) 

   How can America ever really be "great again" without exposing and stopping criminal use of both ground and space based microwave and laser weapon systems - without real freedom and safety for ALL American citizens - without the heart of our government standing up for, and being here for, those of us who are being so terribly hurt? 

I beg you to put your strength up against these horrid crimes that are happening to American citizens, like myself. We matter too. But do we matter to you?

Is there any hope for us? Will safety and freedom ever truly be here for us too? 

Heart Felt Thoughts

Many things come to mind in the past week, but the following statements come from my heart...

ONLY THE KINDEST CAN BE THE BEST, BECAUSE IT NEVER PUTS ITSELF ABOVE THE REST.

True GREATNESS only comes through PEACE that is upheld with COMPASSIONATE CONSIDERATION for the feelings and needs of fellow human beings, including fellow races, fellow political parties, fellow countries...etc.

When I hear the word "freedom" my heart wants to cry out, "Real FREEDOM must include total FREEDOM from all types of radio wave and pharmaceutical targeting...etc." The enslavement of humanity must be exposed and stopped, so that the HEART of humanity can be restored.


And the following poem also comes to mind. I remembered it from a book my father gave me when I was in my teens. At that time, we both felt the importance of its message...

The Measure of a Man

by Anonymous

Not--"How did he die?" But--"How did he live?"

Not--"What did he gain?" But--"What did he give?"

These are the units to measure the worth

Of a man as a man, regardless of birth.

Not--"What was his station?" But--"Had he a heart?"

And--"How did he play his God-given part?

Was he ever ready with a word of good cheer,

To bring back a smile, to banish a tear?"

Not--"What was his church?" Nor--"What was his creed?"

But--"Had he befriended those really in need?"

Not--"What did the sketch in the newspaper say?"

But--"How many were sorry when he passed away?"

Under the Guise of "Help"

 Evil often operates under the guise of “help," but it’s the type of “help” that serves their goals, not the type that the victim needs for safety and independence.

First Song of the Year

I Still Feel the Light!

Copyright Sharon R. Poet 1-2-2025

It’s a painful place to be in -
A lonely homeless plight,
Especially where my family
Had joined the evil fight
To break my heart and Spirit.
But I still feel the Light - I still see the Light.

I went back to that place. 

Where they were hitting me 

And cutting up my face, 

Where they manipulate 

 With greed and hate 

To tear us all apart… especially the heart. 

They twisted everything around 

To blame me for what they’d done… 

Made me the “crazy” one. 

There are a lot of dark places 

In this “crazy’ world of mine. 

And there are many lost people 

Who forgot how to be kind. 

I steer my way around them 

To park under the Light.

 I still feel the Light - I still see the Light. 

Keep me safe from harm. 

Hold my hand tonight. 

I still feel the Light. I still feel the Light

 

Oh…. help preserve the Love 

That keeps me alive. 

I still feel the Light. I still feel the Light

Wrap me in Your arms. 

I still feel the Light. I still see the Light. 

In these Tears I cry… 

I STILL FEEL THE LIGHT!

.

A Difficult Holliday Season

The holidays were more difficult for me this year, than any other since my mother being taken from us at Christmas time in 1977.
   Aside from what was done to my father, around the time of his death, in the past couple years, there has also been what he and my sisters did to me around that time. I knew that the long standing hate filled jealousy in my sisters would deprive me of any inheritance. I knew this since they manipulated and lied their way into gaining complete control of our father’s will and estate twenty years ago. I never expected to get any inheritance. The painful part was the way it was done – with obvious hate and vengeance and dishonesty entwined with heavy doses of mental abuse and emotional abuse…and some of it seeming to come from my father. I had not expected the vengeful and abusive and dishonest directive to my father’s will. And it hurt a lot, because it was like my father, whom I had forgiven and made peace with years ago, cruelly and vengefully striking out at me from his grave, while I was in state of grief and feeling nothing but love and concern for him. It hurt like hell.
   I knew that BOTH of my sister’s had manipulated him into it, and had most likely even created the last version of the directive without him even being aware of it. But, it still struck me hard. In the months after this I struggled to move past it and bring my good memories of my father back into the foreground, instead of just feeling betrayed and abused by him at the time of his death. I struggled to wipe out the picture of him cruelly swinging an axe at me, and replace it with him being too kind to be so hateful, like he used to be…or like I'd thought he was. I don’t really know him anymore. Perhaps I never did. 

I was recently told that my father’s home was quickly sold and the inheritance divided between most family members (in the usual unfair ways that my sister’s have always operated in), many months ago. It appears that my sisters took most of his money for themselves, both before and after his death. And the rest was divided between other family members.
   And here I am – a family member whom they know is literally homeless and financially struggling for many years now… and not one member of my family offered to share any of the inheritance with me. Like I said, I knew that my sisters would hatefully deprive me, because their jealous hate of me has been there all my life. But I had just recently wondered if any other family member would offer to share part of the inheritance with me. I wondered this, because, if I were in their shoes, its what I would have done – I would have given the deprived one at lease the portion of what I got, that should have gone to them. I think its what most people would have done in this situation. (Some people would have even contested such an unfair and abusive directive to a will, even if it meant losing their own inheritance.) But not in my family. They all went along with it and got their money months ago and every recipient just took it all for themselves, even though they knew I was being unfairly deprived and was still suffering in a homeless situation. This is not a surprise to me, but it sure makes their lack of care for me blatantly obvious.
   I doubt I would have accepted any money from them, so that was no real loss for me, but the lack of care that deprived me of it, and the horribly abusive and vengeful way it was done, hurts a lot. I had previously actually told my father that I did not want any of the inheritance. But I later set things up to make all of my family think that I did want it and would accept it. I did this to see if they would still deprive me, and also so that they could not blame me for their aims to deprive me. 
   My little inner kid used to cry over feeling too unloved in my own family, and still does to some degree. But now, I am just accepting the fact that most of my family is too abusive and heartless to be what I have always needed and wanted them to be for me as well as for each other, and that they have gotten far worse rather than better in the past couple decades. It’s a VERY sad situation. This is hard for me, because I still love them and sometimes feel as sad for them as I do for myself. But I am accepting the way it is, because there is nothing I can do about it, accept do what I must, in order to protect myself from them. Having to staying away from my family, in order to protect myself, has always been difficult for me, because family is very important to me and my love for them has never wavered. But I can’t make them love me when they don’t and when they even seem to not be capable of doing so. And I can’t let them continue hurting me. I matter too.

The can't stand the heartlessness, I am still ashamed to say

has grown in my family enough to keep me away.

P.S. Parts of my family have actually played active roles in mentally abusing me, emotionally abusing me, and intentionally and hatefully depriving me to keep me suffering in a homeless situation, through the past several years. My older sisters have lead this hate filled drive against me. But many followed it, without regard for me, including my father, no matter how much I had begged for their help. They make it VERY clear that they want to keep me homeless and suffering. And there is a part of me that has actually enjoyed shoving in their face… the fact that I found kindness and consideration at the Concord Social Security offices and am now receiving my retirement social security refunds… that they could not keep me completely deprived and suffering… that I will get back onto my own feet and get a decent home of my own to live in regardless of their ill wishes. Imagine my little inner kid, stomping her foot and shoving her chin up in the air to defiantly say, “I’m going to stop suffering in destitution even though you don’t want me to. So there!” This is exactly what I am doing. This is my form of revenge.

I Pray...

I pray for real genuine positive change, in America and around the globe, which restores lost freedoms and sets things right, with compassion and consideration for ALL people.

Update on my Personal Situation

After getting my retirement social security I started saving for a better place to live, because I was still living in a small sedan car in parking lots. But as I searched for an inexpensive piece of land or a good prospect for a tiny home on wheels, the microwave targeting vamped up, and my little sedan started literally falling apart and I had to replace it. This set me back a bit. I have given up on a truck or bus (for a tiny home) and I am just saving up for the land I need to be my next step in getting back on my own feet in the home department.
   I have always wanted to do a 'back to the basics' way of living off the land... and this is a good thing since I will probably not ever be able to afford anything else and will be very lucky if I can accomplish even just this at my age of 65, but I believe I can; I dream of building my own cord wood cabin on a peaceful and private chunk of land that I purchase. I will probably still end up turning it into a small healing center, but my first priority will be doing my own healing work on myself, both physically and emotionally. I'll not be very good for anyone else until I heal from the targeting, especially the parts which happened inside my own family in the past couple decades.

I am still struggling with the recent death of my father, due to the abusive turmoil that my sisters created in our family around his death, and other things they had previously done to him and I...
   In 2002, my sister's severely emotionally abused our father, in emails they wrote from my email account, in order to destroy his trust in me and manipulate him into choosing them as executors of his will, instead of him moving forward with my older brother and I as executors.
   In the end, they greedily got what they wanted, in criminal and abusive and manipulative ways, and had even intentionally deprived our father of his other loved ones; keeping him isolated against his will, after manipulating him out of his own home, through all of the final year of his life...etc.
   I now also believe that my sisters are at least partly responsible for our father's unusually rapid decline in his health in the last year of his life, not only due to their usual mental and emotional abuse, but possibly also through effecting him with harmful substances or parasites...etc. I believe that my sisters are capable of almost anything, because of how cruel and heartless their greedy behaviors had been as they sabotaged our father's relationships with his other loved ones, in order to put themselves in complete control of him and his estate, in his old age...etc. My sister's behaviors have been hateful and criminal and abusive and extremely manipulative. They even used our father's death as an opportunity to hurt me while I was in a state of grief. Its all been a very difficult and painful situation that I now need to heal from.

A Bit of Validation for Torture Victims

updated on 8-24-2024

Microwave targeting is now also being called "Havana Syndrome" and "Anomalous Health Incidents" (AHI).

In the video I shared in the previous post, more was said about the microwave targeting, and the plight of the victims, than I've seen in any other report. The focus was only on government officials who were attacked with microwave weapons. But, now that the existence of microwave weapons, and some of their capabilities, have finally been publicly exposed and some officials are standing up for some of the victims; the door has opened for more aware officials to also stand up and share what they know about the various types of weapons, and various types of victims that do indeed exist, both inside and outside the government. This video is a small step, but it is an important one, because it is officials standing up against the reports, which still try to claim that microwave weapons do not exist and/or that the targeting isn't even really happening; its three official investigators stating that the weapons do indeed exist and that people are indeed being hurt by them...

The chairman said, in his opening statement, that the National Academies of Science Engineering and Medicine found the AHI symptoms "to be consistent with the effects of directed pulsed radio frequency energy. Many of the chronic non-specific symptoms are also consistent with known radio frequency effects, such as dizziness, head aches, fatigue, nausea, anxiety, cognitive deficits and memory loss."

The rest of the hearing was three witnesses, who have investigated microwave weapon attacks, making opening statements and answering questions...

Mr. Edgreen; stated that the microwaving is not new. He mentioned reports of it starting as early as in the 1950s when the USA embassy started being attacked in Moscow, and that there have been many other reported incidents since then. He spoke of the unfair "gaslighting" of the victims. He said that, "The signs and symptoms of AHI are generally compelling and that pulse electromagnetic energy, particularly in the radio frequency range, explains the core characteristics." he said that some of the microwave weapon attacks are "designed to make the target feel like they are crazy, like they are imagining things, especially in the low intensity long duration hits."

Mr. Grozev; stated that he did extensive studies of the victims and found that there were many symptoms that surely were NOT "psychosomatic" or from "preexisting" symptoms, like has been said in other reports. He stated that he found proof of microwave weapons being developed at least since the 1970s and referred to them as, "Wave Weapons" which are both acoustic and directed energy weapons. He stated that there is "sufficient evidence" that microwave weapons do exist and can have ill effects on the human body and brain.

Mr. Zaid; stated that microwave weapon attacks have "mostly silently plagued" many victims "for decades." He said that, "The victims are not just selfless public servant, [but are also] their spouses, children (including infants) and even pets." He shared intelligence info that mentioned, "a high powered microwave system weapon that may have the ability to weaken, intimidate or kill an enemy over time and without leaving evidence." He also said that "this weapon is designed to bathe the targets home in microwaves, causing numerous physical effects, including a damaged nervous system." He stated that "Todays hearing can only present a sliver of relevant information. The overwhelming majority of evidence, concerning AHIs is hidden behind classified walls." He said that, "There is intelligence, scientific, and medical evidence that substantiates the existence of AHIs and that SOME of the attacks were perpetrated by a former adversary. That evidence can be specifically identified in the proper classified setting. That said, there is a wealth of publicly available information concerning the history of directed energy weapons, particularly its scientific and military applications."

Mr. Thompson asked the three witnesses, "Are any of you aware of any reported incidents from Individuals who are not members of the United states government?" Mr. Edgreen said, "I am not but...I only focused on former and present government employees." Mr. Zaid said, "There are many people who believe they are victims... I only represent government employees, so I don't focus on the accuracy of those particular claims." Mr. Grozev said, "Not on American soil, but in other parts of the world there've been complaints that appear to be credible." 

All three witnesses think that Russia is at least partly to blame, and Mr. Edgreen repeatedly stated that the USA should strike back and seek vengeance on Russia. But Mr. Grozev (or Mr. Zaid?) wisely said, "From my personal point of view, making this public is the best protection." One of them stated that a Russian official said that Russians were being attacked by the USA and were aiming to strike back, around the 1980s. However, there are, no doubt, many groups and many countries that have developed microwave weapons since Nicola Tesla's experiments in the late 1800s and early 1900s. And surely many have already been vengefully hurting each other with them, at least since the 1950s. And Public awareness and stopping criminal use of the technologies, EVERYWHERE, is truly the remedy. We must have a peaceful end to the hell that too many of us have already experienced, rather than even more suffering being inflicted. We just must.

Much of the needed information has been classified as top secret, which has hindered investigations as well as the hearing in this video. I'm sure there were reasons for the classification, but masses of victims need the validation and understanding and acknowledgment...etc. Hopefully there will soon be a LOT more transparency and the plight of ALL types of victims, both inside and outside the government, will be realized and acknowledged, and criminal use of all types of microwave weapons, both ground and space based, will be completely stopped.

Homeland Security Hearing - (full video)

https://youtu.be/bwlCmtLCM2U?si=1VxXQuUsaCXM-5KJ

(I am not sure if this address will remain accurate due to possible infiltrations.)

 P.S. I feel that brain numbing pharmaceuticals and radio wave mind control have also helped to hinder independent investigations and has caused a lot of blind disbelief and denial of the truths. :-(  But it looks like the time has come for us to push past the obstacles. :-)

On the Microwave Targeting

Updated 8-23-2024

On this blog, I've not shared much about my daily experiences with the microwave and covert targeting, because one of my survival methods has become to ignore it as much as possible. But it has been an ongoing problem, with periodic severe vamp ups.
   I still wonder what started it. When I first started realizing what was happening, I had wondered if it was somehow connected to my Uncle working for the FBI and/or similar agencies doing interrogation work. But then I thought that the targeting probably followed my mother down from Canada and the Catholic "Indian Residential Schools." And I have also thought that my sisters put me on some sort of hit list. It may be one or all of these things. It has sometimes seemed like I've been being targeted by more than just one group and for more than just one reason.
   But I recently watched a video that was put out by Homeland Security, which stated that officials and their families have been being targeted with microwave weapons, in some of the same ways that I have been being targeted. So, I am now back to wondering if my visiting my Aunt and Uncle's home in Florida opened a door for the targeting to follow me to New Hampshire. Were they and their loved ones being heavily targeted when I visited them? I do not know, because they are no longer alive.
   I hope time reveals the full truth about why we have been being targeted, but, no matter what the reasons are or who is doing the targeting, the results are still the same; us torture victims have been suffering indescribably and all forms of the microwave targeting must be completely stopped ASAP. Freedom and safety and healing should be the primary focus. 
   My heart cries for all of us torture victims, and feels for all of the officials who have been dealing with this horrid confusing situation. I deeply appreciate the officials who are now publicly addressing the microwave targeting, because this brings deeply needed validation to those of us who are under attack, and brings needed understanding to unaware people. This means more than words can say.
   Hopefully soon, the rest of the world will become fully aware of all of the various types of microwave targeting that has been hurting many people, both inside and outside the government. Hopefully very soon, criminal use of ALL the technologies that can emit and direct radio waves, will be completely stopped. Hopefully soon, nobody will be being hurt or controlled or deceived by any aspects of the evil radio wave targeting anymore. Hopefully soon there will be safety and freedom for all types of victims and all of the rest of humanity.

Below is the video I watched. (I am not sure if it will remain the same because I am still dealing with computer infiltrations and it had appeared that the address was being changed the first time I tried sharing it a couple months ago.)
   One part of this video, which disturbed me, was when the military man called for the seeking of vengeance against those whom he assumes are responsible. I can understand his upset, but I hope officials, both here and around the globe, will focus on stopping criminal use of radio wave technologies and protecting humanity from further harm, rather than inflicting more harm...

I hope this hell ends with peace rather than with more wars and more suffering, because there has already been far too much suffering for far too long. We must have freedom and peace and healing. We just must.

"House Homeland Security Committee Holds A Hearing On Foreign Anomalous Health Incidents"

https://youtu.be/bwlCmtLCM2U?si=1VxXQuUsaCXM-5KJ

A Deeply Meaningful Song

This is a positive affirmation song, which Jewel wrote for herself. But it has special meaning for me, right now, because  (among other things) in the past couple years I was hit with severe levels of emotional and mental abuse, in my family. I was lucky to have had a psychologist prove to me that I was not "insane"/broken, before this last round of abuse began. But I still benefit from the positive affirmations I've written into many of my own songs and poems, as well as from things like my perception of Jewel's "Hands" song. I've been telling myself, "I am OK. I just need freedom from ALL of the abuse and to heal from it. I am OK."

I wonder how many kind and sensitive and compassionate types of people lose trust in their own sanity and/or feel bad about themselves, due to being in emotionally and mentally abusive situations. I'm sure there are many and I know how horrible it feels, because I've been there myself. This song is for them/us. But it is also for the people who have let hate and jealousy and unhealed pain/anger lash out to hurt us, because they need to know that their darkness is not winning, and that they can choose to find/heal their own hearts and be kind, instead of hurtful.

Jewel - Hands
  https://youtu.be/CZHfKnK7TgQ?si=7R_0yIJxat5lHKxH

God's hands work through our Hearts.
We must do our part.

P.S. This is an alternate version of Jewel's Hands song; https://youtu.be/mAvExmRtQ_4?si=GZmm2Jrrj2UUc25B

My New Song - Does It Even Matter to Ya?

Does it Even Matter to Ya?

copyright Sharon Rose Poet 7-27-2024 

I am now almost old and grey.

My steps sometimes begin to sway.

My skin looks like a crumpled bag,

And some see me as a worthless hag.

But I have a heart and a sound mind.

And I need you all to be more kind.

My heart sometimes, begins to break

And writhe beneath each cruel mistake.

But does it... does it even matter to ya?

Does it, does it, does it even matter to ya?

Some would say its just "tough luck.

Fight back or swim hard, like a duck."

Or "you just have to toughen up."

But I never fell and never swam,

And I don't even think I can -

I want to stay the way I am!

My heart is something I must guard.

Although this world can make it hard.

But does it... does it even matter to ya?

Does it, does it, does it even matter to ya?

I was sensitive and this is good,

But for myself I never stood

Until I wrote the songs for you.

I wish you all could know it too;

The heart in me I had to save

Inside that misperceived cave.

My heart was deepening its Love.

When I turned from that first big shove.

But does it... does it even matter to ya?

Does it, does it, does it even matter to ya?

I loved you deep right from the start.

And longed to share with you my heart,

I wanted to wash away all your pain

And bring about the needed change.

But you chose to do it by yourself

And got stuck on an angry shelf!

So, I cried alone in an empty place,

Unable to reach beyond the mistakes.

But does it... does it even matter to ya?

Does it, does it, does it even matter to ya?

As I look back at our misplaced steps

That most have not even faced yet.

It hurts so much its hard to bear.

Sometimes I just numbly stare.

If only we'd all been free to care

. If only truth had stayed back there.

Although the past can't be undone,

We can choose to learn from it or run.

But does it... does it even matter to ya?

Does it, does it, does it even matter to ya?

Did I ever even matter to ya?

This song almost fits Leonard Cohen's "Hallelujah" cello melody, but it needs one of its own. 

Standing for What is Right

We can still stand up for what is right

Without joining the negative fight.

An Epiphany on the Water Contamination Problem

I had wondered how the pharmaceuticals were getting into our wilderness rivers and streams, since the EPA said they were being found there as well as in our city water supplies. This has been thought to be primarily from run off of unused pharmaceuticals that has not been properly disposed of. But I just realized that, because most people consume various types of pharmaceuticals, which contaminate our human waste, almost every country septic system is contaminating the Earth, especially those that sit near the pathways of under ground streams...

THE BODIES, OF EVERY HUMAN BEING, WHO CONSUMES PHARMACEUTICALS, ARE CONTAMINATING THE EARTH AND/OR OUR WATER SUPPLIES, LITERALLY EVERY TIME THEY GO TO THE BATHROOM.

So, what is the obvious solution? Return to using at least mostly only safe and healthy raw plants and healthy diets for medicine. We may also be able to filter the waste, of pharmaceutical takers, through something like charcoal, in order to remove the chemicals, but would the loaded charcoal waste contaminate the Earth too? There are probably other things we can also do, but lets finally face the TRUTH...

THE SAFE MEDICINE, FOR US AND OUR ENVIRONMENT, IS NATURAL PLANT MEDICINE. THE HEALTH AND SAFETY OF BOTH DEPEND ON US RETURNING TO IT. AND A LOT MORE CAN AND SHOULD BE DONE, IN ORDER TO PREVENT ILLNESSES, TO SAY THE LEAST.

I Grieve

I cry - I grieve, for my heart to be set free.

Don't Judge Me

Don't Judge me

copyright Sharon Rose Poet July 25, 2024

Don't judge me unless

You've writhed in my shoes -

Left with nothing

Left to lose,

Then years in a car

Filled with abuse -

Stretched to the max

Inside a noose.

Don't judge me unless

You've writhed in my booth

And got sorely beaten

For telling the truth.

Ode to Care for me

I wrote this poem last month, after deciding that I must keep a door closed, on my family, in order to protect myself and recover from what they had done to me and our father...etc.

Ode to Care for me

copyright Sharon Rose Poet 6-20-2024

I am facing the reality
 Deeper than ever before.

On their hate and cruelty

I must glue the door.

I still love them all

As much as before.

But my aching heart

Can't take anymore.

I need peace and kindness

For my health to restore.

PLEASE STOP THE POLITICAL FIGHTING!

I am praying for peace between our political candidates and political parties. We, the people, should not be subjected to the hateful fighting anymore. It's just not good for any of us.

Anomalous Health Incidents - Microwave Targeting

I have felt very disappointed that the initial news broadcasts, which exposed the "Havana Syndrome" incidents a few years ago, did not quickly lead into at least stating that the "crazy tin foil hat people" may have been right about being attacked with microwaves and may not be "crazy" at all. But they didn't, that I know of. And in some arenas this situation recently appears to have gone back in the opposite direction - into the usual process of discrediting the victim's experiences and questioning the existence of microwave weapons.

   The truth is that any technology, which can emit and direct various frequencies of radio waves (microwaves), has the potential for criminal use. And there are now many, which are both ground and space based. It is a well documented historical fact that many different countries and private organizations have developed them, since the late 1800s - since Nicola Tesla's experiments with the effects of radio waves shot into the human body. And there are plans or patents of various forms of radio wave (microwave) weapons being built since then, including the one that Nikola reportedly invented and passed on to Canada, Britian, Russia and the USA in the early 1900s.
   British microwave weapon expert, General Barry Trower had publicly stated that by the 1950s extremely sophisticated microwave weapons had been developed, which could effect the human body and mind in many different ways. According to him, certain frequencies of radio waves (microwaves) could be used to inflict the symptoms of almost any sort of physical or psychological illness...etc. So, their existence and capabilities are known by many people. And there is also the well known existence of microwave detecting and blocking technologies.
   

There should be no controversy about the existence of microwave weapons, at this point, but there obviously still is in some places! I think part of this problem is that some media and government officials are not yet aware of the microwave weapons, and the ones who are aware have not yet stood up to publicly expose them, because the weapons and their applications had been listed as classified - top secret, at least since the Cold War.
   But, there is now a desperate need for them to either become unclassified, or for caring officials to crash through that wall and stand up, due to wide spread criminal use of various types of microwave weapons and the fact that masses of victims, both inside and outside our governments, are now in desperate need of the validation, understanding and support that only full public awareness can deliver. Will this happen soon? Only time can tell.

The Havana Syndrome types of attacks were so primitive, in comparison to the far more sophisticated types of attacks, that it makes me wonder if targeted common citizens, who have been being attacked with microwaves and told that the government is doing this to them, have decided to make their own weapons and strike back. If so, this is a very sad situation for both sides.
   Some people are blaming Russia. But, according to my experiences, and things I've witnesses, the core of the problem extends beyond Russia and is a very wide spread global problem. I hope ALL people and countries refrain from seeking vengeance. I hope countries and aware officials, around the globe, quickly pull together to prevent further criminal use of both ground and space based technologies that can emit and direct various frequencies of radio waves.

Another Vamp up in Microwave Torture

I've experienced painful daily microwave attacks aimed at my head and neck - upper spine, for the past few days. I pray for freedom for all types of victims of this hell, including me.

Ode to Our Historic Quakers

As I learn more about the original Quakers, I am finding validation for my own experiences and beliefs, as well as for my work. The core Quaker belief was that God is Love and we can directly connect to Love/Light/God through our own Hearts. And I realize the truth in this, because I've had experiences with it, since going through a grieving/healing process in the late 1980s and early 1990s. Since then I have felt that when we release the suppressed pain that blocks our Hearts, we automatically connect more deeply with Love/Light/God. This is why my work has focused on embracing our feelings and healing our Hearts, in order to bring more Love and compassion into our world. Many people have put me down and thought I was crazy. So, I am glad to be able to back up my realization with a stand for people who had also found the same reality many centuries ago - the original Quakers. I feel much less alone now, even though I do not know if any of the Quakers had realized how people can deepen their direct connection to God, through focusing on healing their own Hearts - through focusing on releasing the supressed emotional pain that blocks Hearts. So, I am adding this part to the table here.
   I'm not as open as the original Quakers seem to have been, especially since I've been set back through being targeted. But I've experienced enough of it to know the truth in what they had declared. I feel that our human capability of a direct connection to pure Love/Light/God is one of the most important messages humanity has ever needed to receive. It is very sad that it has not yet been allowed to receive it to a large enough degree. The sad state of our world is evidence of not enough people directly connecting with and feeling and sharing real Love.
   The Quakers were also heavily targeted for trying to share their message with the rest of humanity. As they declared that we can all directly connect to God, through our own Hearts, they became a serious threat to the religions that wanted people to join the churches and follow and obey only the ministers and priests...etc. Therefore some Quakers were tortured or killed or imprisoned, both here in the USA and abroad. But what remained of the original Quakers stood strong...

"Right is right even if everyone is against it and wrong is wrong even if everyone is for it" ~ Quaker William Penn (1600s)

Once the Quakers had made a deep enough connection to God/Love/Light, they naturally treated other people with more compassion and this reached the Heart of many people. So, the tortures and killings stopped, as the Quakers started becoming revered for their kindness to others. This resulted in a British king giving Quaker William Penn the land that is now Pennsylvania in the USA. The Quakers were also given a Noble Peace Prize in the mid 1900s.
   But it appears that the Quakers continued being targeted in covert ways. It appears that they have been being pushed aside and infiltrated and some of them even manipulated into becoming more like the traditional forms of Christian religions - the ones where the preachers teach and lead the people instead of people being lead by their own direct connection to God. The result of this is the various types of "Quaker" groups that exist today. But there is only one genuine Quaker group, and it is the one that has held strong to the old original Quaker ways of worshiping and living. How many real authentic Quakers still exist? I do not know. It is probably very few. So, I'd like to help bring back the original Quaker values, because they honor our own natural spirituality and the Love that we ALL need far more of in our troubled world.
   The original authentic Quakers had silent meetings where they meditated. In these meditations some focused on deepening their connection to the Light/God/Love within their own Hearts, and some waited for the connection to happen. Those whose Hearts were not too blocked to make the connection, automatically felt more Love and compassion toward their fellow human beings. Consequently authentic Quakers were often leaders in movements that called for world peace and the abolishment of slavery and many other humanitarian efforts to help poor and suffering people. According to my research the following things are the core of the original Quaker ways. I am surprised by how identical they are to my own beliefs and values...

1. Forming a direct connection to God, through our own Hearts, and following God/Love, instead of only blindly following human leaders. This is the most important core of real Quakerism. And its something ALL people can do. Some people's Hearts are open enough to do it easily. And some people, like myself, have to go through a grieving/healing process, in order to deepen our connect to God/Love/Light. At this point in time, it appears that humanity has been so wounded that a lot of healing has to take place in most people, in order to connect to the levels of Love and Light that are needed in our world.

The following Quaker values are all things that people automatically feel strongly about after we have a deep connection to the Love/Light/God in our own Hearts...

A. Equality; Authentic Quakers felt that All people are equal. They saw no difference between the rights of Native Americans vs new settlers, between men vs women, between poor people vs rich people, between "black" people vs "white" people, between Christians vs Jews or Buddhists or Quakers...etc. 

B. There is Good in ALL people; Authentic Quakers saw the good in all people. They believed that ALL people were God's children and that even the worse criminal types could heal and choose better ways.

C. Peace on Earth; Authentic Quakers were anti-war. They believed in using only positive, peaceful and non-violent ways to resolve problems. The authentic Quakers refuse to fight and kill, in the wars. Some people viewed this as them being weak or cowardly, but they were just being more kind and compassionate.

D. Freedom for ALL Human Beings; Authentic Quakers were against slavery and believed that all human beings should be free to live their lives the way they choose to. This includes freedom of religion.

E. Living a Simple and Humble Lifestyle; Authentic Quakers lived a simple lifestyle. This was reflected in their original clothing, which the Amish copied after the Quakers invited them into Pennsylvania. Interestingly, the Quakers stopped wearing that type of simple clothing after the Amish copied them. In a way, the Amish replaced the Quakers in Pennsylvania and other places, but they are complete opposites in the most important spiritual and humanitarian issues.

F. Social Reform; Authentic Quakers cared enough about humanity to want to help make things better for ALL people. Consequently they often participated in things like better treatment of the Native Americans, and the abolishment of slavery and protests against violent wars and getting laws passed to give women the right to vote...etc. 

G. Humanitarian Aid; Authentic Quakers did what they could to help the poor and suffering people.

H. Love thy Enemy; Authentic Quakers did not seek vengeance. They treated their enemies with compassion.

And this list could go on. The original authentic Quakers had more Love/Light/God in their Hearts and so were genuine humanitarians. There are many people throughout the world, who are not Quakers, and who exist both inside and outside many different religions and cultures, who also have deep direct connections to God/Love/Light in their own Hearts. Most just do not realize it or do not view it as a connection to "God." They are the people whose Hearts have not been too blocked to feel deep levels of Love. They too are authentically compassionate and humanitarian types of people. People can have a deep connection to Love/God/Light without ever even believing in God or Jesus and without ever following any religion. I have deeply felt this truth, to the core of my own heart and soul, since the early 1990s. People who have open Hearts automatically care about people and want peace and freedom and feel Love for ALL people. Its actually not just a Quaker trait, its a natural human trait that exists in everyone whose Heart is open enough. God is Love and we can ALL feel that Love through our own Hearts.

I view the original authentic Quakers as people who had found and honored, the most important part of the natural spirituality that ALL human beings are born with - the Heart - the Love - the Light - the God that exists within us all. And they aimed to show the rest of humanity this natural human capability, which is why they were targeted. 

PEOPLE WHO HAVE A DEEP AND GENUINE INNER CONNECTION, TO THE LOVE/LIGHT/GOD THAT EXISTS IN ALL OUR HEARTS, CAN NOT HATE OR SEEK VENGEANCE OR BE VIOLENT OR BE GREEDY...ETC. SURELY WE CAN ALL SEE THAT MORE OF THIS IS NEEDED IN OUR WORLD. LETS LET MORE LOVE IN.

It is so sad that the Heart of humanity has been being severely blocked through the suppression of feelings of sadness, through mass distribution of various types of feeling numbing pharmaceuticals and other substances...etc. All that blocks people's hearts prevents people from feeling and being more loving. Many people must learn that we can not get rid of the bad in humanity through blocking the good - the Heart - the Love - the compassion. A lot of damage has been done to the Heart of humanity, but it can be set free and healed. Please help set the Heart of humanity free, so that we can ALL bringing more Love and peace into our world. Below are a few of the messages that I've been sharing in my writings since the 1990s...

GOD'S HANDS WORK THROUGH OUR HEARTS - WE MUST DO OUR PART.

WHEN WE BLOCK OUR FEELS OF SADNESS WE BLOCK OUR HEARTS. DEEP GENUINE GRIEVING RELEASES THE EMOTIONAL PAINS THAT BLOCK OUR HEARTS FROM LOVE.

ITS OK TO CRY. CRYING IS LIKE GIVING THE HEART A SHOWER TO WASH AWAY ACCUMLATED DIRT.

HEALING THE WORLD BEGINS AND FINISHES WITH THE HEALING OF OUR OWN HEARTS.

Since my own spiritual experiences, in the early 1990s, I do not believe in joining and following any one religion. During my years of spiritual searching I learned from many religions, but joined none. This is what felt right for me. However, if I had to join one religion, I'd join the old original Quaker religion, if any of it still exists and is free of microwave targeting, because their beliefs and ways are akin to my own. But I intend to remain free of the confines of religion and to keep honoring my own direct connection to God/Love/Light. When I make that connection, to a deep enough degree, is the only time I feel whole. And I've always felt this connection best when I'm alone in a peaceful and private place out in nature. Nature is my church.


Videos About the Quakers

Due to so little being said about the Quakers in our recent history, many people now confuse the Quakers with the Puritans. And due to the Amish moving into the Quaker's Pennsylvania, and then started dressing like the Quakers had dressed, some people have thought that the Amish are the Quakers. So, the first two videos below explain differences between Puritans and Quakers and between the Amish and Quakers, which are quit significant. The core Quaker beliefs are actually the complete opposite of the Amish and Puritan spiritual beliefs. The Quakers were far more evolved than the Amish and the Puritans. The Quakers were the ones who had the Heart to accept and help and care about different people with different beliefs, instead of abandoning or condemning or killing them... 

Were Quakers Puritans?
https://youtu.be/Ok9b-IYjoI8?si=a_MwLoA9MDjgoWgP

Are Quakers Amish?
https://youtu.be/KNbItuTZkXw?si=o1k9fNO45ZTClIYG

The following video focuses on the origins of the Quakers and their core beliefs....

The Quakers: History, Beliefs & Paradoxes | Society of Friends
https://youtu.be/dxzlcIEe6hc?si=rjInXCmaOhsyNvbT

The following video is primarily about the Quaker's humanitarian work since the Quaker, William Penn, gained ownership of Pennsylvania.

Quakers: That of God in Everyone (2015) | Full Movie | Paul Buckley | Thomas Hamm https://youtu.be/47IXwL-Qnl8?si=OkrByn7FrEXToSpB

P.S. As I watched videos about Quakers, and heard some Quakers talk about their connection to God being a voice they can hear. I found myself hoping that the targeting of them has not included the V2K - the voice to skull radio wave transmission of voices, because this could easily be mistaken for God's voice, by unaware people, and it could seriously mess up their lives. Those who use these types of technologies on targeted people seem to enjoy playing god and controlling peoples lives. Its a horribly intrusive and criminal thing. I hope ALL Quakers become aware of the V2K capabilities of microwave and laser weapons, in case it has been used on them.
   The voice of the real God/Love/Light is not something I hear in my head. It is what I feel in my heart and experience in my inner visions. It is felt more than heard. Its like a deep inner knowing that can translate into thought, but is not a separate voice in my head. And there is a deep feeling of Love connected to it, the type of pure Love that brings me to tears, because it is so strong and so comforting and so beautiful. But this is just my experience. Perhaps the inner connection to God is different for different people. Or perhaps some people just describe it as something they "heard" because it is so hard to describe - because nothing compares to it and you have to feel it to understand it. But no matter how it is experienced or described; real Love/God speaks to us through our Hearts, not our heads. God is Love.