My Heart Bud Website Has been Taken from me!

My old www.heartbud.com website has been taken from me and the charge to get it back is thousands of dollars, which makes it impossible for me. This also wipes out the important email account I had for that site, which also wiped out a lot of evidence.

This site was an important part of my work! :-(

Poems I Recently Wrote

Despair's Prison
copyright Sharon R. Poet 10/1/2022

My despair thrust itself 

Against it's prison's pane, 

With withered Hope 

And no saving rope 

To soothe away it's bane, 

Then wove it's way 

With nothing to say 

Through heavy drops of rain, 

That dare to fall 

And fail to stall 

Over and over and over again. 

 But it searches still, 

With all it's sight, 

Through twisted webs 

 And darkened ebbs, 

For the needed Light. 

Is it there - does it exist 

Or must it remain sorely missed? 

Will there ever be an end 

To their relentless night?

Web of Deception 

copyright Sharon R. Poet 10/2/2022

They weaved their web inside my dream 

As well as in my tortured life. 

Concealing darkness that snuck in 

To compound my strife. 

Its happened before and may again 

But I hope it never will. 

There has to be a real Light 

Somewhere beyond that hill.

Fantasies 

copyright Sharon R. Poet 10/2/2022

Freedom reins in my fatasies 

Around my heart's aching bleeds 

And my soul's unfilled needs. 

Perhaps someday it will be real - 

Something I can fully feel.

Hidden Knife 

copyright Sharon R. Poet 10/2/2022

If they could care 

 To leave the mask 

Inside an unused task, 

And cast aside the 

Hidden knife, 

The hell could end 

And heart may send 

 It in to save my life.

The Return

copyright Sharon R. Poet 10/2/2022

When I write out my rhymes 

Its a returning to my Self 

And the memories of times 

When freedom was not a wish 

But something that was mine. 

Did that freedom truly exist 

In any of the sorted past? 

If it did it did not last. 

But perhaps it will return 

In lessons we must learn.

Emily's Mother

copyright 10-1-2022 Sharon R. Poet

She gasped one breath 

Before her death 

Dared to finally fall. 

Tears that fell 

Came to wish her well 

Through the final call.

Dear Emily copyright

Sharon R. Poet 10/2/2022

Writing our hearts 

Is something we must do. 

It is true. 

I can so relate to you. 

I lack your education, 

But we are still alike 

Even as victims of a dark 

That swung around to strike. 

Our "childish" rhymes 

Could reach the times 

In hearts we could touch. 

We must not let "intellect" 

Interfere so much.

How I Feel About Abortions

I feel that abortions should be done in the natural way; There are plants that women can use for natural contraception and also for a natural abortion in the first few months of pregnancy. It is very sad that we lost most of the wisdom of these plants and how to use them, but surely it can be regained.

I hope that women who have successfully used natural plants for abortions will publicly share what they used and how they used it, so that humanity can reclaim the wisdom of how to have a safe and natural abortion at home. In a dream I was given the name of an herb, which appears to be for this purpose. That herb was "Ladies Mantle." I have heard that Penny Royal and other herbs can also be effective. I do not know how much or how often to use them, but I'm sure there are people who do and hopefully they will soon be able to freely share that information without being targeted in any way or regarless of the foolish targeting.
   Knowledge of the natural ways to have an abortion, in the privacy and comfort of our own homes, should be made available to every woman and the rest of humanity. An abortion should be as free and easy as growing and picking and using the right plants in effective ways.
   Some say that the plants are unsafe, but I strongly feel that they are actually the safest way to have an abortion; we just need to learn which ones to use and how to use them. And we should be doing our own propagation and growing of these plants. Women were doing this for thousands of years, before modern pharmaceuticals and invasive medical procedures took control, and there is nothing wrong with returning to the natural ways. I actually think we must, for the sake of our health and safety.
   Through nature, we truly have been provided with everything we need and I think we must turn back in that direction, for abortions as well as everything else.

I understand that there is a lot of controversy on this "abortion" subject. I feel that the drive against abortions contains far too little consideration for BOTH women and children. So I feel a need to make a stand on it... No woman should ever be forced to have a child, that she either does not want or does not feel comfortable bringing into this world, because it is not good for her or the child.
   If I could still have children; I would not even consider bringing another child into this world right now, because it is such a troubled place and I would not want my child to be subjected to it. If I got pregnant now, I'd want to immediately stop the process, in the natural way, in the comfort of my own home. If I were still in my child bearing years, and was sexually active, I'd be growing the plants that I'd need for both contraception and abortion in my own yard or on my own windowsill. I feel sure that most women would also prefer this, even though many have not publicly said so due to the horrid negative judgements that have been being flung around. Those judgements must stop, especially since they sometimes get cruel or violent. I hope those who fling them find their hearts.

Women should be free to choose an abortion, in the early stages of a pregnancy, without being shamed for it. And ALL women should be informed of the natural ways to do it with home grown plants in the comfort of their own homes so that they are also free to choice either that or going to a clinic. These are just basic human rights that should not be shamed or prevented.

P.S. If our world were a more free and safe and healthy and affordable place to raise children... more women would be having more babies. If those who negatively fight against abortion would drop the axe and aim for less discord and more kindness and more consideration and more respect for women's rights and the needs of children...they could actually help make our world a healthier place for children to be birthed into.

WE MUST MAKE OUR WORLD SAFE FOR CHILDREN!

New Freedom's Peace Paper

Freedom's Peace Paper

http://www.poeticpublications.com/freedomspeacepaper.pdf

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

The Targeting of my Heart Bud Publication

My Heart Bud publication has been heavily targeted. The sabotages have taken on many different forms and ended up with its websites being blocked from public view. www.sharonsbud.com advertised my first 2007 edition of what became The Heart Bud publication in 2008. The two websites I used for this were www.theheartbud.com and www.heartbud.com. The files I'd uploaded on these sites since 2007 have been changed to a 2021 date, which seems to mean that the files have been changed by those who target me. I can not reach the heart bus sites to see what the pages show. But the www.sharonsbud.com site now shows an index page that is Chinese!!!! 

And I just almost lost BOTH of my heart bud websites due to them "expiring" even though I think I'd paid for them. I paid for them again, but was not able to print the receipt from the hosting site, due to the page going blank, and I was not able to log into the email account they said the receipt was sent to. I have noticed that not all of my websites are even listed on the "my products" listings of domains page that is to renew them. This could have been part of the problem. My freedom's peace website needed renewing and it was not listed on the domain product page today. I was able to get it renewed  BEFORE it expired, but it is disturbing that not all my domains are listed, making it to easy to overlook them, like what may have been done to the heartbud sites when I was renewing all of my sites last year. 

more may be added soon. This is all just too discouraging. The web is NOT safe for targeted people and I do not know why I even bother with the fight to hold onto what is mine on it, anymore. I don't stand much of a chance against evil intrusive forces that seem to be able to infiltrate any company I use or any computer I use.

P.S. UPDATE 10/2022; I had paid for www.heartbud.com site just before posting this. BUT the payment appears to have been applied to something else and the site has been taken over. This also wipes out the important email account I had for that site, which also wiped out a lot of evidence. 

Web Infiltration

I was just checking on some of my websites and was shocked by what I found. ALL of the files on ALL of my websites have been changed to the year 2021 as the date of being uploaded, which wipes out all my copyright proofs! And two of my websites have been replaced with chinese pages! - www.sharonsbud.com and www.namatari.com.

It Is What It Is

No matter how we perceive it, it still is what it is.

Plea for Our Future

   Last week I had several dreams of fire and flood disasters. I feel that at least some were symbolic of what has been happening in my life. But it appears that some were prophetic and that those who target humanity plan to vamp up the "natural" disasters...etc. In one dream there is pressurized water pushing its way to the surface of the Earth, in different places that are all connected, which causes the surface if the Earth to sink/flood. In another one there is a fire in the middle of the USA which comes down from Canadian...etc. 

I beg officials to stand up for humanity and call for an end to criminal use of all sorts of laser and microwave weapons, including those that have been being used to torture victims like myself and those that have been used for mind control...as well as all other parts of the horrid evil targeting of humanity.

No More!

No More!

copyright 7-28-2022 Sharon Rose Poet

I've been through it all before;

Round after round of torturous hell

And the unreachable locked door.

I can not go through it again and

I should not be put through more.

I beg those who do the targeting to stop - stop hurting me and stop hurting humanity. I beg officials who are aware to stand up and be here for us; please stand up to expose and stop all levels of the covert targeting, including the tortures and the mind control. We need you to be here for us, especially for victims who are not aware and never even try to seek or get any sort of help.

Flood of Emotions

    I recently had a dream about a flood in my family of origin; in the dream I am caught up in a flood, that rages through it, and I am desperately groping for something solid to hold onto as the waters sweep me away, but the structure keeps breaking apart - there is nothing solid for me to hold onto there.
    I had thought that this part of my dream was prophetic, but it appears to be about what has already happened...
    In the past year I had stood up (from a distance) for the first time in my family of origin. And I did not handle it well due to my overwhelming pain and concern for my father.

Trauma Induced Control

People who are in a state of emotional trauma are more impressionable - more controllable. And this is why those who do the covert targeting have used the tactic of inflicting emotional trauma upon the victims whom they have not been able to control in other ways, like with the pharmaceuticals.

Lasering of My Foot?

   It appears that my foot was being damaged with a laser weapon starting on June 25th. It caused severe pain where the achilles tendon attaches to my heel, especially when I walked.  I had done absolutely nothing to injure myself - I had not fallen or twisted my foot and I had not been exercising or doing excessive walking or anything unusual. The pain just suddenly started happening although there was no injury, which is why I feel it was another laser weapon attack.  I have experienced many of these sorts of attacks and they are usually to sabotage a job or to punish me through making me suffer. 

   My foot is a lot better now - only mild pain and tightness when I walk. And I hope it is allowed to return to normal.

  

A VERY Sad Scenario

  When there is no acknowledgement of an abuse, and there is no validation, no understanding and no compassion for those who got hurt by it; it remains unsolvable, especially when the abuse continues. And its even more unsolveable when the victims of abuses or crimes get blamed for it or are made out to the bad one, because this is just more abuse. Unfortunately this is the way of the evil targeting, both inside and outside heavily targeted families. Its so sad!

Good is Good and Bad is Bad

In that dark "good is bad and bad is good,"

But in the Light Good is Good and bad is bad.

The "Mental Health" Problem

I just got a visit from two guys who were from a mental health facility that is operating under the name of a "Public Health" Service." It was probably an attempt to (or a covert threat to) have me labeled and drugged and possibly even institutionalized. But I swung the table on them; I told them about how corrupt the "mental health" field is; I told them about things I witnessed in the "mental Health" facility I worked in and about the New Hampshire Parenting Magazine's article that strongly implied that a child feeling sadness is a sign of "mental Illness"...etc.  I talked to them about genuine healing instead of labeling/stigmatizing and drugging people who just need love and kindness and healing. And I asked them to think about what they are a part of and if they want to be used to hurt people instead of GENUINELY helping people. I don't know if I really reached them, because they were probably puppets for those who target me, but if they have any heart left they will think about what I said and do some research.
   Hopefully they will not try to do anything against me just because I am obviously going through tough times and am living in my car. Is living in a car or going through tough times now listed as a "mental illness"? Since normal, natural sadness has been listed in the DSM as a "mental illness", it wouldn't surprise me if poverty is too. Is knowing about how corrupt the field of psychiatry is now a "mental illness"? I'm sure some could twist it into that, in order to prevent awareness. But I must stand strong anyway.
   I'm glad that those who target me did not do the trick of vamping up the microwave targeting, while I talked to those guys, just to make me look mentally ill. They really have nothing to go on - they'd have to lie in order to have me picked up and put away, which I guess is possible, but it hopefully will not happen. 

   I know that vicitms like myself even just writing about our experiences with the covert targeting, makes us look "mentally ill" in a world that is not aware of the targeting and has been brainwashed into thinking that way. But I am standing up anyway, because the truths about the targeting should become known by everyone so that understanding and validation and the PROPER KINDS OF HELP can reach victims of covert targeting.

   I feel that the "mental health" field is not only extremely corrupt, but that a lot of it is literally criminal and should be shut down and replaced with good healthy people who are into GENUINELY helping people to heal, instead of preventing healing with false "mental illness" lables and the suppressing pharmaceuticals, which they enable the distribution of.
   I feel that the field of psychiatry, and the rest of the medical field, has been used in the evil targeting of humanity far more than any other organizations have. Like I have said in my past writings; it is not a coincidence that the brain and feeling numbing pharmaceuticals, which both the "mental health" and medical field heavily pushes upon masses of unaware people, also aids all aspects of the mind control part of the evil targeting of humanity, because it blocks peoples instincts and intuition and leaves them more susceptible to all types of brainwashings...etc. These pharmaceuticals also block people's Hearts and makes them more apt to seek vengeance instead of choosing healthy resolutions to problems. The negative effects of the mass distribution of the brain and feeling numbing pharmaceuticals (which have also been found in public drinking water) are VERY evident in our troubled world. What they have been doing to humanity is a holocaustal crime against humanity and it should be known by everyone and prevented from continuing.

The Dreaded Sticky Stuff

Since I took down most of the two primary blogs, that I was writing in since 2011, I am feeling like I should repost some of my experiences with the targeting. I hope it helps to validate other genuine Targeted Individuals... 

 In the past two days it appears that something sticky was put onto the cap of my little battery operated blender. I had not noticed it right away and rubbed my eyes with my fingers and now have an infection in my eye. I am not sure if this is what caused the infection, but it happened at the same time, so it most likely is. (I'm washing my eye with a bit of baking soda and sea salt disolved in water and it seems to be helping.)
    I have felt that those who target me were drugging me with the sticky stuff they have often put on surfaces I frequently touch, but there also appears to be some sort of fungi or bacteria in it. Its sticky and hard to remove with normal cleaners. (Its like the stuff they have also sprayed on my windshields, in order to prevent me from seeing through it when it rained.) They used to put it on my steering wheel, on door handles, on the money they'd have their puppets give me, when I've had to beg for help on the streets, and on the public toilet seats I'd used on a regular basis. But I have been avoiding these things as much as possible. I now even use a bucket in my back seat, to poop and pee in, instead of using public bathrooms most of the time. But its impossible to protect myself from all of it while living in a vehicle that they can access and while having nobody here to help me protect my belongings when I have to leave my car to go into stores for necessities. I have to go into stores to get food and I have to sleep and these things make me and my car/home and belongings too vulnerable, which is VERY frustrating, to say the least.
    I feel deeply violated with all aspects of the targeting, but especially the parts where they intrude upon my body or my writings or my car/home/personal space.
    I do not even do normal pharmaceuticals whenever I can avoid them, so criminals forcing chemicals into my body feels like a horribly intrusive violation to me, even more so than the microwaves and laser shots they have been violating my body with on a regular basis. They have also stolen some of my journals and print outs from my car...etc. Its all just too horribly wrong!

Please do not assume that I am crazy. This is what those who target me want you to think. The truth is that this is NOT "paranoid schizophrenia" - its real targeting, which is not in the victims imagination and should be far more openly acknowledged and completely stopped from continuing. Most victims have gotten absolutely no validation and no understanding from anyone and this is just too sad. The crimes that are being commited against us are VERY real and extremely inhumane. And the fact that we suffer alone, without validation or understanding or the types of help that can come from these two things, makes the crimes FAR worse than they would otherwise be. Please give us the benefit of your doubt.

P.S. Since the summer of 2011 my primary blog was at www.sharonpoet-ti.blogspot.com and later also at www.yearnforfreedom.blogspot.com. I used these from the summer of 2011 to the time when I started this blog at sharonrosepoet.blogspot.com.
    I recently had a dream that showed people now thinking that I am copying someone else, because of my previous writings being mostly taken down. I have thought about reposting the heart of those old blogs, but am concerned that more will be altered or erased in them if I access them now. They have already been tampered with, through erasing things and changing dates of posts...etc., and I do not want more to happen to them. The same sorts of things have been done to my books. I've had a serious problem with computer infiltrations that interfere with my blog and book writings and also with being forced to change publishers and being forced to rewrite books...etc. Hopefully people will understand and listen to the Heart of their own instincts.
    There is a lot more in my books than there is in my blogs. My most recent books are published with Barnes and Noble and some are still on Amazon and all the latest editions are on my website; www.poeticpublications.com

Shining a Light on it

 The dark does not exist where a Light is shone on it!

We just have to keep shining Lights on all aspects of the covert targeting - keep bringing it out into the open - keep exposing it with heart and truth and honesty - keep stopping it until it has vanished completely. And in order to keep doing it we have to start doing it on a larger scale. The heart of a LOT of good people should be standing up and shining Lights into the darkness - exposing it and chasing it away.

The Worst Kind of Death

The worse type of death is the death of our natural spirituality. And it appears that this has been the primary aim in the evil targeting of humanity from the start. This is why native people, who avoided modern pharmaceuticals and the religions that were being forced upon them, were so heavily targeted in the catholic residential schools and beyond. 

   In the dream I recently had, those of us who are being targeted were all intentionally inflicted with the same physical illness and it was an illness that makes our limbs go numb - its an illness that can literally force us into medical treatement and being completely dependent on other people - its an illness that ripps away our independence and can be used to destroy all aspects of our freedoms, including our inner freedom. (I am already noticing signs of it in the past few months - it is already happening.)
   It appears that the targeting has shifted to us being put onto a hit list for the destruction of our inner freedom and spirituality through forced "medical treatment," which has played a HUGE roll in the targeting of humanity all along. Those of us who are now on this hit list are probably all people who are aware of the targeting and have lost trust in modern medicine and would not ever freely choose to take the brain and feeling numbing pharmaceuticals...etc. Physically disabling us would force it and also leave us far more succeptable to other parts of the targeting as well, because it could force us to be completely at the mercy of people who are controlled by those who target us and are a danger to us - it could and surely will literally force us into unsafe and harmful environments, if it is not stopped.
   I pray that all aspects of the targeting will be stopped and that we will be set free BEFORE we are hurt more than we already have been - no intentionally inflicted physical illnesses - no being forced into places where we can be harmed psychologically and spiritually or in any other way...etc.

According to other dreams I've had, there are many types of illnesses they can inflict upon people whom they want to force into controlled environments; blindness is one of them too. It can actually be anything that forces people to be unable to take care of themselves physically. Laser/microwave weapons can remotely cause various types of nerve and muscle and bone and organ damage. And the parasite and chemical parts of the targeting causes damage as well. All aspects of the evil targeting must be fully exposed and stopped ASAP, for the health and safety of all of humanity, but espeically for those of us who remained more free and are now on a hit list for complete destruction. God, help us all.

P.S. After I publicly exposed a group of us being inflicted with the same limb numbing illness they had a puppet say, "OK. I'll do it another way."  :-(

Dream of Death

Last night I had a dream of death. In the dream I am with a group of native people and we are dieing from something that is making our bodies slowly stop functioning. In the dream I know it is not natural - that we are being killed and I start sobbing uncontrollably. Then I woke. In the dream I am separate from the Natives, but am also part of that group of them that is being killed.

I beg aware officials to let your Hearts openly stand up for us and be fully here for us.

Dream of Death

copyright 4-26-2022 Sharon Rose Poet

The cardinals screached a warning

On this sad death dream morning.

Then I was distracted by a call

From a heart that dare not fall.

But the cold hard truth remains

Inside of my own unshed pains,

And benieth my growing fear.

That hell is far too near.

If only I were free to choose

The way that we all can not lose.

I've begged to no obvious avail.

But my train is now off its rail.

I hope for freedom and healing

To reach us before the stealing.

Our lives may not matter to anyone

Who knows what has been being done,

But they matter to them and me.

If only all hearts could see.

Oh cast us, Lord, Your Light

And end this torturous night;

Set us all completely free -

The way it was meant to be.

Then help us all to forgive

Those who did not dare to give.

Cast us deep into pure Love

So the hell can be risen above.

P.S. The worse type of death is the death of our natural spirituality. And it appears that this has been the primary aim in the evil targeting of humanity from the start. This is why native people, who avoided modern pharmaceuticals and the religions that were being forced upon them, were so heavily targeted in the catholic residential schools and beyond.

In the dream, those of us who are being targeted were all intentionally inflicted with the same physical illness and it was an illness that makes our limbs go numb - its an illness that can literally force us into medical treatement and being completely dependent on other people - its an illness that ripps away our independence and can be used to destroy all aspects of our freedoms, including our inner freedom. (I am already noticing signs of it in the past few months - it is already happening.)
   It appears that the targeting has shifted to us being put onto a hit list for the destruction of our inner freedom and spirituality through forced "medical treatment," which has played a HUGE roll in the targeting of humanity all along. Those of us who are now on this hit list are probably all people who are aware of the targeting and have lost trust in modern medicine and would not ever freely choose to take the brain and feeling numbing pharmaceuticals...etc. Physically disabling us would force it and also leave us far more succeptable to other parts of the targeting as well, because it could force us to be completely at the mercy of people who are controlled by those who target us and are a danger to us - it could and surely will literally force us into unsafe and harmful environments, if it is not stopped.
   I pray that all aspects of the targeting will be stopped and that we will be set free BEFORE we are hurt more than we already have been - no intentionally inflicted physical illnesses - no being forced into places where we can be harmed psychologically and spiritually or in any other way...etc.

According to other dreams I've had, there are many types of illnesses they can inflict upon people whom they want to force into controlled environments; blindness is one of them too. It can actually be anything that forces people to be unable to take care of themselves physically. Laser/microwave weapons can remotely cause various types of nerve and muscle and bone and organ damage. And the parasite and chemical parts of the targeting causes damage as well. All aspects of the evil targeting must be fully exposed and stopped ASAP, for the health and safety of all of humanity, but espeically for those of us who remained more free and are now on a hit list for complete destruction. God, help us all.

P.S. After I publicly exposed a group of us being inflicted with the same limb numbing illness they had a puppet say, "OK. I'll do it another way."  :-(

Tortured Again!

The night before last I experienced life threatening laser shots to my throat. Then the next morning, in the first place I walked into, they had someone play the song, "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger..." This is typical of an attack that punishes me for saying something that those who targeet me do not want me to say. This sort of attack has happened to me many times - more than I could even begin to count. I've been hit hard lately.

I rarely write about the tortures because I focus on ignoring them and pushing forward, in order to survive. But I feel a need to share this example of one type of laser weapon attack.

A Painful Day

Torture levels of microwave targeting vamped up after I spoke and wrote about the mind control part of the targeting again. Its been a painful day with my torso and shoulder being lasered as well as my lungs this morning.

Another Glance at the Mind Control

I had a hard time believing the mind control part of the radio wave targeting. But as I digested professional reports and a few of the testimonies of genuine victims (between 2011 and 2013), and I looked back through my life and that of my loved ones, many confusing puzzle pieces began clicking together and I knew it was real.
    It appears that families of indigenous people were used for experimentation and also are now victims of ongoing sadistic targeting that aims to deprive or torture or steal from or recruit or just manipulate in cruel games...etc. My grandmother was a Native American in Canada and I believe that the targeting of my family most likely started there and was also in the catholic schools they were forced to attend in my mother and grandmother's generations. 

    But Native people are nearly not be the only ones who are victims of the mind control parts of the targeting. And people whom torture victims get close to are VERY apt to be effected by it, in order to prevent the proper kinds of support or help. This can make things confusing and psychologically harmful to both parties...etc.

The global pharmaceutical problem is directly linked to wide spread technological (radio wave) mind control. People are more controllable/impressionable when they are taking certain types of brain numbing pharmaceuticals, like antidepressants and antianxiety pills...etc. Much of humanity is now affected through the general numbing of the brain with mass distribution of these types of pharmaceuticals, (which are now even being found in some public water supplies), and by the radio waves that flood most communities around the globe. It appears that subtle brainwashings have been happening on a VERY large scale.
    But this situation is much worse in heavily targeted families, especially for individuals who have been inflicted with microchip implants during surgeries (like for tonsil removal) or dental work...etc.

In targeted families mind control can affect victims in multiple ways, AT STRATEGIC TIMES, and include but are not nearly limited to making a person...

feel confused
feel mentally numb
forget important things
laugh at inappropriate times
repeat things over and over again
feel sexually aroused or impotent
feel like they are in love
misperceive important things
crave unhealthy foods or substances
not be able to stop an addiction
be obsessed with certain things
have repetitive thoughts
be drawn to certain people or places
be blocked from their own natural spirituality
be blocked from their own heart/compassion
be emotionally blocked or be over-emotional
believe false things
disbelieve true things
say things they do not mean
feel anxious or depressed or angry
think negatively or positively
feel euphoria or doom...etc.

   The radio wave mind control is not at all noticeable to unaware victims. They think they are following their own hearts and instincts, but aren't really. And sadly, they often think there is something wrong with them, when there isn't. They tend to blame themselves or each other because they are not aware of the crime that has been being committed against them.
    In more severe forms of mind control it appears that victims can experience periods of being drugged and made to do things they would not normally do. On the severest levels it appears that the radio wave and pharmaceutical mind control can also make a person even become violent or can cause brain damage and completely change a person's personality - completely control/enslave a person's mind...etc. (I think some of the mass shootings have probably been being done by severe mind control victims.)
    But even in its mildest forms, the pharmaceutical and radio wave mind control has been destroying many people's lives and manipulates our world in many negative ways. Its been literally destroying the Heart of humanity. It has to be fully exposed and stopped, in order for freedom and recovery to take place for all of humanity, but especially for heavily targeted families and individuals.

Torture levels of the radio wave targeting are noticeable to aware victims because it causes physical pain and happens at strategic times. My experiences have been mostly with the torture levels of the targeting, which have often included painful laser shots to various parts of my body, (including regular sexual assaults), and painful or debilitating microwave weapon attacks, which drain my energy and cause physical pain. I have experienced a lot of life threatening microwave and laser weapon attacks and minder ones have been an ongoing part of the targeting that I experience.
    But I have also experienced most of the things in the list above, at strategic times. And I have directly witnessed ALL of these things in MANY people who are primarily mind control victims. Many people are truly not as free as they think they are, especially in targeted families and people whom we associate with.

I hope you are free enough to feel the truth in this, especially if you are an official who can help stop it from continuing. Please share this article with other people. There is more in my Technological Holocaust book and in my Yearn for Freedom books. www.poeticpublications.com And there are free articles on www.targetedinamerica.com

P.S. It appears that I have experienced less of the mind control and more of the other parts of the covert targeting, because I was creative and wrote songs and poetry since I was a child; they seem to have wanted me to be able to keep producing material for them to steal. I portray some of this plagiarizing part of the targeting in my "Road Missed by a Lyricist" book. And I have no doubt that far more of my writings were stolen, than the few things I've noticed. They have literally made millions of dollars (possibly billions) from the theft of my work, while they sabotaged my life and my efforts to succeed with my own writings.
   I also experience rounds of covert harasssment and horrible physical tortures that are obviously performed with microwave and laser weapons, especially since I started realizing and writing about the targeting. Instead of killing me or frying my brain (like they have done to many other aware victims) they have repeatedly tried to literally torture me into silence.
   They have me trapped in a destitute and homeless and isolated situation and seem to have gained control of everything and every one around me, at least to some degree. The physical and emotional pain they have inflicted upon me is astronomical. I desperately need to be free of all aspects of the targeting so that I can live my life the way I am supposed to.
   I have been waiting for officials who are aware and whose hearts can be here for me. And I hope it happens before its too late for me. I hope its not already too late for me to fully recover from what those who target me have done to me and live in peace for at least the last couple decades of my life. I am now in my sixties and I have lost many decades of my life that I need to make up for, for my own sake as well as that of many other people. (But it appears that the plagiarizing part of the targeting of me is over and they now want to get rid of me completely.)

Contemplating the Ideal Life...

    I watched an interesting movie last night. It was about a couple who woke to find that they appeared to be the only human beings left on earth. Everyone else had vanished without a trace. These two people perceived the situation in opposite ways; one seeing opportunities to have whatever they wanted and the other seeing mostly doom. I wondered what I would feel if this happened to me and was reminded of a poem I wrote in the mid to late 1990s...

If I were the only human left 

On Earth's vast depleted nest, 

Alone is somethings I'd feel less, 

For I am drowning in the depths 

Of its crowded emptiness.

   That poem was about the shallowness of a place I'd had to move to and me missing dear friends whom I'd been close to before the move...etc. But I had never felt the depths of that "crowded emptiness", like I have since I was isolated to be tortured and harassed in the dark covert targeting that has been happening to many people in our troubled world.

   If I experienced what that couple in the movie experienced I'd be VERY happy, because I'd be free - nobody left to harass me or shoot me with microwaves and laser weapons. I don't want everyone else to vanish, but if they did I'd love the freedom and I'd thrive in it. I'd miss people, but right now there is not much left in my life to miss, because nobody has been fully here for me, in the ways I need people to be, since the mid 1990s. Like I used to say about my marriage and the place I'd moved to then; its easier for me to be alone by myself than it is for me to be alone while surrounded by other people. I've always felt this way.
   I'm not a complete loner though. I love being with people almost as much as I love peaceful solitude in nature. The types of people, whom I enjoy the most are people who have deep open hearts and are deep thinkers - people who are growing and evolving. Most of the world has always felt too shallow to me and I now understand why more than I ever have before...

I feel that the ideal life is all people being completely free - their HEARTS and minds not being blocked by anything, especially not by the pharmaceuticals and radio waves that now appear to have most of humanity enslaved. This is what I want - COMPLETE FREEDOM FOR ALL OF HUMANITY, including me.

I want to be free to fully live my life and to be growing and evolving into all that I can be. Its extremely painful for me to be trapped in the stagnant rut that the targeting shoved me into and holds me in. I truly have been drowning in it and still am. Its not only been holding me back - it has also been slowly destroying me. I want to be free of all aspects of the targeting and to recover from the damage it has done to me, BEFORE its too late to fully do so. And I hope its not too late although it sometimes seems like it already is.

Celebrating Spring

Celebrating Spring

 copyright 3-26-2022 

 The birds celebrate 

A long awaited Spring. 

My car no longer has 

The debilitating ring. 

And my heart longs for 

The freedom to sing. 

After this long, cold 

And distressing night 

I might just make it - 

I may end up alright, 

If the radio waves 

Stop their attacks 

And I can quickly

Return to my track.

Freedom's Seeds

Freedom's Seeds 

copyright 3-6-2022 Sharon R. Poet

He has to be independent and free, 

That's just the way it should be. 

Don't let the sun leave his day

And make him be slipping away.  

Let him have the Love he needs. 

Plant for us freedom's seeds. 

Please.